[hasharin]

Ok i'm sorry if this is a bit long. I'm 15 and male.
Problems:
1. I am/was (i'll come to this later) really good friends with this girl and i really like her but she goes out with one of my best friends. He's been annoying me for a while but i don't know if thats my perception because i'm jealous or not.
2. I believe I have an eating disorder because i start to feel really ill when eating a lot of the time. My BMI is 16.4. People say i'm thin but i honestly don't think I am. My arms are but my legs and stomach aren't.
3. I tell everything to that girl i'm friends with and moan about things endlessly, so much that now she's fed up with it. She has problems of her own to deal with and all i do is moan to her. Tbh i'm a bit suprised shes put up with me for so long. She said that I need help and when I said I didn't think that would help, she stopped talking to me (this happened today btw). I will get help but i want to see what you guys say first.
4. I promised my friend that I wouldn't cut myself after I did once and told her, I kept that promise for a while until we fell out and now i've carved "hate" into my leg (its barely recognisable as hate though) and I wanted to do more but i stopped myself.
5. I really want to make things right with my friend but i don't know how because every time i try to i **** things up more.
6. My parents are always shouting at me for little things and my mums hit me a couple of times.
7. My dad is better but he's hardly ever here due to working abroad a lot.
8. I believe that I may have borderline personality disorder because i have all the symptoms and have taken a lot of online tests which have agreed.

I'm not sure what i want you to say, just any advice or comments welcome.

Firstly, welcome to PC!

I think you could definitely benefit from seeing a psychiatrist and T, especially with your mentions of cutting, low BMI (possible ed), and possible borderline personality disorder. Also, it concerns me that your mom has hit you. Parents should NEVER hit their kids.
Please keep us updated on how you are doing.

[hasharin]

oh btw my mum doesn't hit me like full force she just hits the back of my head and its only happened a couple of times

[Tanisha]

Originally Posted by hasharin

Ok i'm sorry if this is a bit long. I'm 15 and male.
Problems:
1. I am/was (i'll come to this later) really good friends with this girl and i really like her but she goes out with one of my best friends. He's been annoying me for a while but i don't know if thats my perception because i'm jealous or not.
2. I believe I have an eating disorder because i start to feel really ill when eating a lot of the time. My BMI is 16.4. People say i'm thin but i honestly don't think I am. My arms are but my legs and stomach aren't.
3. I tell everything to that girl i'm friends with and moan about things endlessly, so much that now she's fed up with it. She has problems of her own to deal with and all i do is moan to her. Tbh i'm a bit suprised shes put up with me for so long. She said that I need help and when I said I didn't think that would help, she stopped talking to me (this happened today btw). I will get help but i want to see what you guys say first.
4. I promised my friend that I wouldn't cut myself after I did once and told her, I kept that promise for a while until we fell out and now i've carved "hate" into my leg (its barely recognisable as hate though) and I wanted to do more but i stopped myself.
5. I really want to make things right with my friend but i don't know how because every time i try to i **** things up more.
6. My parents are always shouting at me for little things and my mums hit me a couple of times.
7. My dad is better but he's hardly ever here due to working abroad a lot.
8. I believe that I may have borderline personality disorder because i have all the symptoms and have taken a lot of online tests which have agreed.

I'm not sure what i want you to say, just any advice or comments welcome.

I thought i had borderline personality disorder for a long time but then all of a sudden my phyc said i cant cause of my age but i do have all the symptoms. Anyways I cant say too much about this girl. But since you aer getting help maybe explain that to her. She has to understand what its like to have a mental disorder and if she doesnt shes not going to be able to understand you which you dont want to e with someone who doesnt right. And what really intrested me was the fact you said you carved hate on you leg....cause so did i XD anyways even if you promise to not cut its addictive. It takes time to slowly stop. But you seemed to have stoped for a while before that last cut which is good. The true meaning to getting better is first medications but mostly therapy ...cognitive behavioural therapy. you have to understand your thought proccess. for example I keep trying to find the meaning to all my thoughts all of a sudden I get angery and act on it i call it evil personality and then ill think why am i angry and go back to why am i thinking this and it goes back and forth. i go 5 steps forward then 5 steps back. i gotta take 1. till i reach the middle.....the question is how. Only i can answer that and its the same for you.

Hello, hasharin. You seem to be suggesting the status quo is not working for you. Respond to each item you list with a healthy way to abate, abide or vitiate each concern.

Good luck.

[ruffy]

(((hasharin))) Welcome to PC!!!! Such insight into oneself for being only 15. Yes, it has to be hard to see a girl you like going out with your best friend. Totally normal. Possible eating disorder, borderline personality disorder, cutting. All very serious!! Need to get that checked out by a professional. Now is the time to start dealing with it. Any way you can share this with your parents? If not, maybe a counselor at school? I got spanked as a child but only on the bottom and never on my bare skin and always with prior affirmation that my parents loved me, and wanted me to know that what I did was wrong, and only after several offenses on my part. Im a better person for it. It is not OK for your mother or anyone else to ever hit you in the head. It is similar to being attacked, and it is very emotionally destructive, and talking things out is much more productive, especially at your age. You may want to discuss this with your mom. Sorry to hear that your dad is abroad so much. Its tough when a parent has to work away from home. Keep posting. You will find alot of support here!!

How are you doing, hasharin?

[ruffy]

Hasharin...Hope you know how special you are.

[Beautifully_Broken]

Don't self diagnose, see a professional.

[Rhapsody]