[GreyGoose]

I'm going to try my best to make this breif, civil, polite and friendly.

I have been meaning to post here for weeks now but was afraid of having posts deleted, being banned again, triggering someone or offending someone, violating the TOS, etc. I'm walking on egg-shells as I type this right now...afraid that anything I say may be taken the wrong way...might trigger. Sorry, I'm just being brutally honest here (I hope that's allowed).

I thought about nullifying the IP ban on my account by using a fake proxy server and disguising my IP (or using a dynamic IP) so I could have posted with impunity but that is not the way to make friends so I decided to just take my "punishment". Hey, punishment has been the story of my life.

I wrote to doc John and expected a severe "tongue thrashing" but much to my suprize, he was extremely gracious, forgiving and freindly (Thank God people like him still exist on this planet although he was the one who kept the ban in effect until I wrote to him personally - which I was happy to do once my issues subsided if only breifly).

My issues since the last time we talked. Ok, The "rabies" thing still pops up from time to time. Muscle twitches, numb spots, weird stuff. I'm alive (for now). I'm drinking again (sorry, don't mean to trigger) but that's how I'm coping right now (beer and cigars). It's not a long-term solution but it's working for me right now.

Another gush of emotional honesty here. I've noticed that noone has PM'd me ever since my account has been unbanned to say "welcome back" or "we really missed you Grey Goose!!". That hurts deeply. Maybe noone even knew, I don't know.

Thanks to Ozzie, Doc John and several others who IM'd me through this whole ordeal to try to get things smoothed out. I have no regrets, I just want things to normalize again.

I'll write more later if I'm given that chance. I really like this forum and never figured it would come to this - especially after all the PM's I received begging me to come back. Maybe we can give each other a second chance.

- For what it's worth...GreyGoose

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((GreyGoose)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I for one did notice you were gone. I did PM you. I am so glad to see you back as you have always been one of the nicest people I know here. We have so much in common and I felt I could always relate to you and vice versa. Without going into specific, I know that you went through a hard time here and hopefully that is a thing of the past. You are important here and you are important to me. I hope you know that.

Your post means alot. Anyway, I am glad your back and look forward to your posts. Much love and peace,


Jen

[LMo]

Welcome back, GreyGoose! I did notice that you hadn't posted much lately, but I haven't been around very much myself in the past two weeks and hadn't even known that you had been temporarily banned.

Glad you're back,
LMo

[jmo531]

[(JD)]

WB grey...glad to have you back, and none of this was triggering for me. We all hit tough spots... getting through them is part of healing. Yeah, DocJohn ROCKS! TC

[oksomaybeimnuts]

((((((((((((((((((((GreyGoose)))))))))))))))))))))
i most definitely noticed you were gone and i missed you. very happy to see you back

[Parker10]

Glad u made it back GG ! :-)

[SS8282]

((((((((GG))))))))))) Glad you're back. Kudos for you to post. Hope you're feeling better.

Um, I tried to PM you but it didn't work.

[wisewoman]

Hey G.G., I am totally self-absorbed and don't catch on to anything that is happening here. That said, welcome back. No clue what happened but here we are now and I am glad to see you.

[nothemama8]

GG I've only been back since yesterday, electric company pulled power, Glad to see ya back
Angie

tim.....i write this with a smile on my face .i've been hoping to read a post from you saying that you were back since we last communicated......welcome back......glad to have you here again...love always ....julia

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((greygoose))))))))))))))))))))) welcome back! please take a careful look at this thread. you are cared about here. and try not to take major offense to threads being moved, etc. alot of us has had that happen...honestly. hon, no one's perfect here. we like you the way you are. we really do.

kd

[LMo]

GreyGoose? Have you been back to read this?

[LMo]

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Another gush of emotional honesty here. I've noticed that noone has PM'd me ever since my account has been unbanned to say "welcome back" or "we really missed you Grey Goose!!". That hurts deeply. Maybe noone even knew, I don't know.

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GreyGoose -- I'm a little irked that you complained that nobody paid attention to you when you were gone, but then you didn't even bother to acknowledge that we replied to you, yet you've been posting everywhere else in the forum. To have good friends, you have to be one.

[obsids]

Opps... I've not been on much, so I don't know what happened. But I'm always happy to welcome back old friends.... I mean, not OLD, but well.... ... ah, oh %$#@! Jus welcome back, GG!

[Rebound]

Hiya GG, welcome back. Frankly, I have been a rare sight around here myself lately and have no idea what went on, or that you were even banned at all, but I am glad you are back. Take care.

Here's hoping things take a big turn for the better.

were you really banned, or was a post removed and you left? i didn't know that you were "banned".......