I'm so worried about my son. He trashed webcam and spare glasses yesterday evening (his stereo a few weeks ago). He's so angry... hurting deep inside... using really nasty language... He wants to come back home...
To sit the other end of the phone hearing all these horrible words is just awful and then to understand how confused, angry and frustrated he is in hidden sadness... well... it breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.
He sees the psychologist for the second time tomorrow. I really hope she'll manage to gradually reach his innermost person.

I can't feel anymore... it hurts too much...

/SW

[Rhapsody]

Originally Posted by ShadowWriter

I can't feel anymore... it hurts too much...

((((((( HUGS )))))))) - May relief come soon.

[purple_fins]

I can only imagine how worried you must be.
my heart is with you and your family

I wish there was a straight forward solution-- I think it's going to take much time. I'm sorry.

We can only hope that the people working with your son are VERY quilified and are trying with all their heart to have your son's best interest in mind.... still, I can sure appreciate how so very difficult this must be for such a loving mother as yourself.

thinking of you ShadowWriter

fins

[Sabrina]

I am thinking of you ShadowWriter.

How sad this is happening, ShadowWriter. I hope your son learns to cope and comes to realize the reason he is there.

ty caring people!

don't have words enough to describe how I feel and think at the moment... I'm hurting because my son's hurting....

[lynn P.]

((((Shadow Writer and Son)))) - I can't imagine how hard this must be. I'm hoping this is just a last attempt at rebellion, before he finally accepts he must surrender. I hope this meeting will calm him down. You're both in my prayers.

attempt at rebellion, before he finally accepts he must surrender.

it's not a case of rebellion... it's my son hurting bad and being confused not knowing how to deal with the situation... it's bad coping skills combined with impulses...

May he get the help he needs from those at the school. After all, that is why he is there.

[lynn P.]

I hope your son will get help with the serious hurting and coping skills. Praying for peace for both.

[sabby]

(((((((((((( ShadowWriter & G ))))))))))))))))))

A loving mother's heart strings are always pulled when there is little she can do to help her child. It can also be the same way for a loving grandmother as well. I have somewhat of an understanding of what you are going through and how you are feeling, since I have a bit of the same experience with my grandson.

Sometimes we have to sit with these things and trust in our higher power that we are where we are supposed to be at that moment. It can be so very hard to do sometimes and our hearts just break. Mothers and Grandmothers are fixers.....we don't do well with sitting back and letting things happen without trying to find a solution. Sometimes, those solutions aren't there for us to use. Sometimes, it is what it is and all we can do is trust in ourselves, in those who are trying to help and in our higher power for it to all come together. Hard to do, most definitely.

Hon, it takes time for G to learn how to cope, especially with such a huge change in his life. I know it doesn't make it easy for you or for himself. But again, it is what it is. It's ok to feel what you are feeling. Let it out as best you can. Know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.


sabby

And mine as well.

(((((shadowWriter)))))--I send you hope and empathy at this crucial time.

If he gets it out of his system now; so much the better
for a well adjusted, and good relationship with you later on----
Theo

[ddaybits]

I hope your daughter will be okey soon... maybe she has problems.. why don't you talk to her.. But if she resists just give her some time..

Is your son adapting better, ShadowWriter?

[Love_Psychology14]

I can only imagine how you feel. I'm very sorry. I understand that it's hard to deal with. Watching someone act with such hatred is something that cannot be explained. Believe it or not, I am only 14 years old. I joined this site due to my anxiety disorder. I have witnessed my mother get beat in anger from her previous boyfriends. I couldn't help her, but only watch in fear. As of now, I get very angry. I have never broke things out of anger, but I yell and scream. Words that I don't mean come out of my mouth. I can't even hold any of it back. I'm not sure if help is something I should get or if keeping it to myself is most beneficial to others.. I am being 100% honest with you. If you ever need anything, please comment me.

(((((( Love_Psychology14 ))))))

I'm sorry about not having replied to your posts until now...

There have been a few brighter moments over the last weeks... but mostly the opposite I'm afraid. Our son is hurting and struggling in so many ways and I miss having him here with us.
He's seen a psychologist 3 times now and he seem to like her... so that's a good thing.
At least he's been able to come home at 3 occasions now... 3 ½ hours, 4 hours and almost 2 hours... that's all since he moved 2 ½ months ago. He's supposed to come home and stay over night every other weekend or every third... but he's been in too much distress. We're planning for him to sleep over here at home June 12... after being to a Mark Knopfler concert together with hubby. They are both looking forward to this BIG TIME! So hopefully he'll be so happy and in a good frame of mind that staying home over night will work out fine. Our daughter will not be home though... it would just be too much at the time.

Our daughter has been to visit her brother once. She misses him a lot.

I feel worthless, pathetic and weak... Just can't shake it. I'm still the one he turns to and I'm not there with him... It hurts.

/SW

((((((((((((((((ShadowWriter))))))))))))))))

Please stop blaming yourself, ShadowWriter. The decision was made without malice. Your son must deal with his issues. You are doing all that you can. This is going to take some time.

Pax vobiscum.