Old habits

...die hard. So why do I do these things? I think that I am transitioning back to the old me--the one who would rather weigh 20 pounds less by yesterday. I still haven't taken any of the med sample that the pdoc gave me last Wednesday. She only gave me enough for a week to see if I would behave and so she could talk to talk to my T. And I still don't want to go back to see the pdoc! It's kind of a PTSD thing and I don't wanna go back! Why can't my T go to medical school so he can prescribe? (I'll have to mention that option to him.) Maybe my T will have a good friend who he might think I would do really well with. I have to see someone really sweet and with a great sense of humor, someone patient and who will take my "jokes" in attempt to lighten things and temporarily distract from the issue. I see my T on Monday evening. I am a little unsure what wil happen, but I want to go. After being sick the past week from certain activities, it gave my body that "taste" of not eating again. I am wanting to get back to the old me--the thinner one. I am so hungry, but I will feel guilty if I eat, so what am I supposed to do? 49 hours to go until T appointment.

like you i seek the old me .. but then i realized something .. if im the old me then im going to want alot of the old times and memories .. so why stop at looks when i can go to memories .. ohh heck how bout where i used to live ..

what i discovered is its non stop .. if you learn to accept today you will make NEW memories for tomarrow. So what your not this thin old you .. i bet you look great .. if you want a ice cream eat it .. you dont have to eat the whole container .. just eat something small .. this way you can enjoy something and NOT gain weight. Believe me im alot heavier then i used to be sure its nice to look an things like i did then but it would have to be for TODAYS memories

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Remember....the more you deny yourself your hunger, the hungrier you will be....be kind to yourself....eat....it's not the worst thing in the world..and there are certainly worse things that 20 lbs either way.....love g

Hey, in my mind I'm thin and young, then I see myself in a department store mirror and am SHOCKED!!! I clearly need to lose 30 pounds. At the same time, though, I wouldn't want to be the younger me 30 pounds lighter...she was very unhappy. I want to be the new, older me, and lighter, hopefully. Maybe we can lose the weight together!
Loving thoughts,
Seeker

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thinking about you and hoping things are better

I think we both know that losing weight just isn't the answer. I am at such a low weight that if anything happens, I will be back in the hospital on IV nurtition again like the first 2 months of this year. I don't need that kind of attention.

It is so much better being at a weight where we can function & be able to do the things we enjoy, feel ok most of the time, & still look good.....it is still embarassing shopping in the juniors & childrens section to find cloths that fit....where I still am at.

Healthy is the best answer & something you should focus on rather than massive weight loss,
Debbie