[Sanada]

I'm up, i'm down, i go round and come back around, i spin, i'm in a sphere of 180% rotation; then i see 360% world.
I dont know where i truly am, i know i live and want to live forever. I will try my best for that.
My mind is being pulled in all directions, every one thousand's of an inch i go inside.
Confused i am, but i'm not confused.
Since finding PC my mental health has jumped 100 fold, i'm a lot better; the only problem is i now has a million other questions.

Can anybody help with words of wisdom of what is happening, to me; and to the world.

Thanks.

Sorry, Sanada, I am of no help. I do not recall if you are receiving professional help. Is it an option for you?

[Sanada]

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Sorry, Sanada, I am of no help. I do not recall if you are receiving professional help. Is it an option for you?

yeah, i get professional help, but what i say to the best psychotherapist's makes them just put the're hands on the're heads saying to me 'you're more sane than us..?
I si/sh, they dont, i'm dependant on drugs/meds, the're not; how can be saner than them. Its the questions that cause all the pitfalls.

[Leed]

Hi Sanada ~ I know what you mean. Do you suffer from anxiety also? Many times, when quite anxious, our minds too weird things to us. The "voices" in our head keep making 'noise' and that tends to confuse us. I know when I have a dozen things going on in my head at once, I get addled, and can't make decisions, can't sleep, feel almost out of touch with myself. i finally realize that whatever I'm anxious about is usually something that i have no control of. I have to keep reminding myself that worrying & fretting about it won't change anything. And sometimes I don't even KNOW what I'm anxious about. That's when I have to do something to take my mind off whatever is making me "crazy." LOL

I'm on an antidepressant, and at one time I was being treated for anxiety too. i've also been in and out of therapy most of my adult life. It has helped alot, and as long as i'm open & honest with my therapist, it works great. Sometimes you have to decide if your current therapist is doing you much good. I have changed therapists in the past when I felt I wasn't going anywhere.

i wish you the very best. Keep posting & maybe it will help. God bless. hugs, Lee

Yes, I hope you may find someone you can connect with, Sanada.

[Sanada]

thanks leed... Yeah i tell my T everthing, i hold no secrets from her. Thats the best way, it took time to truly open up to her.
She knows that i frett over little and big things. I'm on enough meds, and she knows that i dont want to add to that list.
I'm on a various few of the 'benzodiazipam' family of meds, also an opiate that helps; but just a small dose of that 1.

I'm finding more questions all the time, its ok, i'm a natural traveler inside. To map my soul and persona. Its like the doors of perception, i look/swim deep inside for good reasons, to find myself and all the voices inside (shouting); but in that i am starting to understand the world i live in. Maybe i might need diving equipment now, lol, meaning more understanding.

I'll try, i have faith in my own talents. If i can find more questions, then i'm still going well.

thanks..

[space1234567]

hello.i have had the same feeling as you and i know what are you feeling now as nobody else and I know how it is terrible.just try to see world is the same you are just looking at the world in other way.you will be better if you talk to someone who really will support you,listen to you .write me if you want.
have a bath.then turn on your favourite music(rythmic) very loudly(when you are alone at home),eat something you like very much.it really helps a bit.
bye
have a nice day.