Manditory two weeks off. Sign to stop trying

i just got news that i have to take two weeks off from work. Next week i start therapy for the first time after being like i need some help with me. I am seeing this as a sign to stop trying to help myself. I wish there companies would see things through some of their workers eyes. I'm not the only one screwed over by this. We all are. Two weeks i'm barely making bills now. My boyfriend works at the same place so we both have two weeks off. I'm just so upset and trying my best not to go back into depression that i've been out of for about two weeks. I wanted to drink or go find some pot, but i am self aware it wont help a damn thing and i've been sober from pot for over a year so not willing to mess that up. I wont, as like with self harm and other negative thoughts. But it's so damn hard. I'm trying to plan ahead but i seem to just stare out in the nothingness. I'll try to pick up something for two weeks but **** idk how that will work out. I don't have anything to sell or i'd be up for that. I feel partly hopeless but trying best to be positive. Sorry i guess i'm just babbling

(((((beauflow)))))
Sorry to hear your struggling, your not alone in that, so many struggle now with this terrible economy. At least your being smart and realizing that drugs wont help, will actually make it worse.

I just wanted to let you know "I hear you" and I will say a prayer for you tonite.

Open Eyes

(((beauflow)))

I'm really sorry that you're having such a rough time right now and that you've been laid off for 2 weeks. That's tough. Things are really bad for a lot of people in the economy right now.

Hope things get better for you.

--splitimage