[Lexicon78]

Lately I have been so emotional. I don't know why, either. Like when I read everyone's posts, I start to cry. Am I crying for you guys or for myself? It's like I can literally feel your pain, but I know that's not possible because I am not you. Nobody feels the same way about the same things, so why am I crying?

I had posted about some of my abuse on another site and one of my dear friends posted to it...it was the very thing I was scared to tell her about. Anyways, I was filled with fear when she replied to the post. I was terrified at just seeing that she had replied. Then I read her post and I started crying. All she said was that she loved me and that she would be there for me. I just didn't know why I was crying. I don't know.

I don't think I'm depressed very much or anything. So it really can't be that. It's like I'm feeling more and more...like I'm part of everyone...like I am not a person but all emotion.

I can't figure it all out.

[darkeyes]

Wow! I went through a period of what you just described, it was odd, and made me worry about what caused it and if I was in any "emotional danger", doc said such stuff happens to some, hormones and changes can be a major cause, and/or life events coming to the foreground of our mind's.
I'm sorry I have no answer to anything,like how to change feeling like this, but want you to know you are not alone.
I bet a lot of our members have this happen, or have been there, it would be interesting to see the next replies your post recieves.
Take care now,
DE

[Mystry]

I know what you mean Lexicon78, I get emotional reading all the horrid things that people do to one another...it's hard to stay focused on just your own world after slipping into someone elses...and sometimes it can modify your own problems... that's why I didn't want to write anymore negative stuff here...but I think if you didn't have the courage to survive your own ordeal you wouldn't be here helping others survive theirs and it is natural to feel the pain when you yourself have been there...we'd be robots if we weren't affected by these things...so if you cry when reading these posts then you know your human with love and kindness to share and you should be proud of that...just an after thought...maybe you shouldn't read any more negative posts for awhile...give yourself a break Lexicon cause I think what your feeling is what the trigger warning is about..."you deserve a break today"...sorry I used to work at McDonald's...

[coffeedude]

((((((Rachel)))))
I hope that you find the love and support you need during this emotional time. I think many of us have felt similar, as we go through such emotionally tolling things, and sometimes crying is the only thing that feels right.

Keep us posted, we'll be thinking about you.

lexicon this happens to me all the time and its partly why I continue to challenge myself to read posts that I have the urge to shy away from. See I don't cry much and usually its after an explosion of too much bottled up or unhealthy release like my cutting. This "post therapy" as I have come to call it releases the tears for me. sometimes its for the poster and other times its for the poster and me. Whatever the reason it happens I feel better sometimes after crying. So I give up on trying to figure it out I just go along with it. Take care.

[backandforth]

you're probably crying for yourself and the poster... sometimes, it doesn't matter though as long as you can get your emotions out... I sometimes get like that when I'm really 'aware' of things, like my life and how bad things are or what I really want etc... or you know how people can cry when they hear of someone dying even if they didn't know the person? they might very well be crying for their own losses, someone close to them, and not the actual person or the things the person represented but in the end it conveys that you care... I don't know if reading the triggering posts or continuing to read them is the right answer, I think only you know what's best for you.. but we're with you whichever way and hopefully you can make some sense out of this emotional rollercoaster for your own sake... I remember a few times when I was laughing hysterically and then broke out into uncontrollable tears... it was the weirdest experience, but I think it was all the emotions building up, stuck inside... maybe you're going through a similar thing???

lexie, this is normal for me also. there are times when i can't control the crying and at those times, i believe that i am crying for the poster and for myself. and i think the holidays have were pretty on the both of us and that didn't help things. i'm here.love, pat

[Myzen]

Lex,

I think that the illnesses make us more sensitive to the pains of the world. This can be a good and a bad thing IMHO.

Most healthy people have a kind of mental shield around them. Unless something shocking happens to them personally or to a loved one they go through life with the blinkers on. This is not a criticism, just an observation. I think it's a normal mechanism.

When we have depressive illnesses of whatever kind, we feel the world as if we had no skin. Everything seems to get through to us. This can be good, in that we can become more empathetic to others, and it can be bad, as we are losing something of the survival mechanism.

I've been like this for many years now, and to be honest I would like to have the blinkers back again.

At the beginning of my illness a friend said to me, "You are too sensitive to other people's pain." My God, was he right about that!

Good thoughts, M

[Lexicon78]

Thanks guys!

OMG...seeing my real name in a post is so shocking cause I never use it online...even if someone does know it! lol