[Sanada]

I have been so happy recently (mainly because of finding PC in April 2011).

Some thing has changed though. I feel like my mind is slipping away. My voices are back (with a vengance), I find myself terrified, and alone.
When I leave my home though I see lots of people want to be with me (its weird), I say 'be with me then', but it does not happen. I am alone looking in the mirror and self reflecting upon myself.

Its so weird, I am told I have a lot to offer, but I cannot share anything in a personal way (meaning to express in words what is in my mind).
So I feel like I am losing my mind, because I cannot share whats inside.
In this, my inner voice is back ( I know its just myself), but it scares me.
My voice tells the truth , I guess that's what scares me.

So........................I am slipping. I am constantly fighting the re-lapse of self harm (I am winning though because of friends @ PC).

Winter is coming, I may be on the streets this year (I might as well be now its that bad here).

Please can someone say something that will keep my mind in place.
I am not a bad person, I am a good soul. My mind though is getting tired.

Help.

[Ygrec23]

Sanada, you ARE a good person! You WILL have friends and people who love you! You WON'T be alone forever! Your friends at PC are with you 24 hours a day! Wherever you are and however you feel! Hang on! Just hang on! Winter is coming, yes, but you will always have a warm place to be. And food to eat. And people thinking and caring about you! All of us here! Take very good care of yourself, please!

(((((Sanada)))))

We are all social beings and it is important to have people to speak to on a daily basis. Please reach out to a local doctor or clinic or self-help group. Even if you just listen while they talk, you will not be alone. If possible, trust yourself to speak in a non-self defeating way, even if it's just a "hello, how are you?" or "beautiful day today!"

Also, sometimes breathing exercises will help calm your body and your mind. Please put so that you can feel your belly expand as you breathe. Then exhale. Do this several times, visualizing the healing fresh air nourishing your muscles and your mind, helping them to relax. Do a body check starting with your feet and going to your head, asking each body part muscle to relax as your continue taking slow deep breaths. If your mind feels tense, give it several deep breaths. If necessary, shake out the muscles to help them relax and do some slow shoulder and head rolls to make sure the neck muscles are relaxed.

Often, I tend to say the wrong things in social situations because of anxiety. People are often told to think before they speak; in this instance, also breath and relax always before you speak. If necessary, have prepared lines even if they are just, "Hi, my name is Sanada, nice to meet you!"

All the best to you!

Hello, Sanada. You are among many here in my thoughts. I wish you the best.

[Sanada]

Originally Posted by Ygrec23

Sanada, you ARE a good person! You WILL have friends and people who love you! You WON'T be alone forever! Your friends at PC are with you 24 hours a day! Wherever you are and however you feel! Hang on! Just hang on! Winter is coming, yes, but you will always have a warm place to be. And food to eat. And people thinking and caring about you! All of us here! Take very good care of yourself, please!

. Thank you Ygrec23.

I know I do have friends here @ PC, and I do love all my friends here. Thank you for pointing out that PC is here 24/7, I never really thought about PC in that way. It is though 24/7. .
I will take care of myself. I am applying for more work and doing peer support training in my area where I live. Trying to be pro-active is helping.

Thank you Ygrec.