I don't know if this might be triggering for some people.

I thought my Dr was going to refer me to CAMHS, which could take several months for them to see me, but it turns out I'm not. My mother got a phone call today from some people from Psy-something (we didn't hear it clearly) who are coming to our HOUSE. I am really worried, what if it turns into an interrogation? Why does there have to be two of them? Are they going to make me go to a hospital? I really don't know

But anyway, it has taken less than a week for them to get back to us, and usually I heard it takes more than a month. I know my Dr was concerned, but I didn't know it was this bad.

Also I know I should tell them everything to get a proper diagnosis. But are there some things that I should refrain from sayings? Like Fang (who really doesn't want me to tell anyone about, or the government from my world will find him). He can go through two personalities; Fang (bad/normal) and Knight (good). He told me all about him the other day, and the memory seems fuzzy. Anyway, he has told me to hang myself or terrible things will happen (parents dying etc) and I am so scared. I feel bad everyday because I get images of them in pain and suffering, and I can't do anything to stop it. I also see what is supposed to be my future (these actually sometimes comes true). Also the OCD intrusive thoughts are here a lot and it seems triggered. To be honest I just want to stuff myself with medications, at least then I'll be a little "normal".

I feel very suicidal a lot. But I'm scared of doing that..I couldn't do it to my family. Also I'm seeing random patches of colour everywhere. I put it down to wormholes from my world (I actually see random holes sometimes too).

But I don't think there is really much wrong with me. I know people wouldn't believe me when I talk about this stuff and just put it down to psychosis...

If I told them this would they put me in an institution??? I'm 15 in the UK btw...
If this is in the wrong forum then sorry.

[Open Eyes]

((((WelcometotheJungle))))

I am not familiar with what they do in the UK so I can't tell you one way or the other.
I just want to give you some kind (((Hugs))).

Open Eyes

[possum220]

If your doctor is sending people around then it sounds like he is concerned. They might just want to come around for a chat, maybe assess what the situation is like. Maybe let you know about the help that is in your area.

IF they do suggest hospital it may be on a voluntary basis. Clearly you do need some form of help. If it does turn into hospital, it might not be such a bad thing for you to get concentrated help.

Hospital is not a forever thing. People have voices in their head for lots of reasons. Just take each day at a time and accept help.

[Crew]

((((welcometothejungle))))) I don't know either what that means for people in the UK however I can truly say that
I care and that you are no longer alone..... I hope your able to come back a bunch for support from your friends

and even from "new friends" such as me

Hang in there cause now you got poeples that care bunches about you, like me for instance.

Peace, Crew

[Umbral_Seraph]

I've never been in MH, so I can't tell you what it's like, but I do know that it's not forever and you really need help. It sounds like all these things are destroying your life. Now, I wouldn't be real focused on being "normal", rather, I would be focused on not feeling suicidal and being able function in my day-to-day tasks.

I'm not much into spirits and the paranormal... but I would be extremely wary of interacting with any entity that encourages you to hang yourself. He sounds like a malevolent trickster to me, and they're dangerous because they do tell you the truth sometimes. When you have gotten to where you feel better, perhaps you should contact a paranormal society to help you deal with whatever it is that is harassing you.

[kate Johnson]

I live in the UK Darling, I know Cams health tem @St Peters, I think they may advice you to spend some time in Abraham Cowley. Dont worry its fine there, friends of mine have been there and I have visited, the people are good Be 100% Honest so the meds will be the right 1's, you dont want to be on the wrong 1's if you want to slide bk a bit more to your happy side. Everything will be ok from now on I'm happy your in good hands x x x

[intelfam]

Originally Posted by kate Johnson

I live in the UK Darling, I know Cams health tem @St Peters, I think they may advice you to spend some time in Abraham Cowley. Dont worry its fine there, friends of mine have been there and I have visited, the people are good Be 100% Honest so the meds will be the right 1's, you dont want to be on the wrong 1's if you want to slide bk a bit more to your happy side. Everything will be ok from now on I'm happy your in good hands x x x

I live in UK too. Most areas have special unit for young people, separate from older perhaps more long term folk. But be honest, as Kate says, if you want help then it's there but it will only work if you are straight with the staff. It may all sound pretty anxiety-making, and stressful and I really feel for you - but they are used to people feeling like you do - hell, just an outpatient appointment freaks me .....

[splitimage]

I'd really be totally honest with the team about 100% of what's going on with you, Fang, what you're hearing, suicidal thoughts and all. I know that's scary but really it's the only way you'll get the proper help.

I can only speak for the Canadian System, but most psychiatric hospitals have what are known as early intervention psychosis teams designed to work with young people who are perhaps experiencing symptoms for the first time.

And believe me, nobody will try to hospitalize you unless they absolutely think you need it, the goal most places is to keep people out of the hospital, as there's generally a bed shortage. To give you an example, I saw my psychiatrist, two days after I'd OD'd, I told him I flat out didn't trust my own judgement about being safe, and that I thought I needed to be in the hospital. Did I get hospitalized? Nope. I got increased community based care.

And if you are hospitalized it doesn't have to be a horrible experience. Again I can only speak to my experience in Canada, but I've been hospitalized twice for extended periods, and both times it was a relatively positive experience.

Good luck.

splitimage

WTJ ... I was hearing and seeing all sorts of things when I first went in for help with all my stuff ... As I progressed in treatment (talk therapy, art therapy, meds, etc.), the stuff I was seeing and hearing eventually diminished ... My doctors never made me to feel as if the stuff I was seeing and hearing wasn't real ... I doubt your doctors will either ... It would be rather unprofessional and insensitive if they did ... I still see things and hear voices every now and then ... I think they just want me to know they're still there ... Even though they know that I'm the one in charge now - not them ... I think everything's going to be okay for you even though it looks MEGA scary at this moment ...

[mimmzy]

I have never been in a MH nor do I know the triggers for hospitalization in the UK but
I imagine that hearing voices and threats of harm to oneself or others logically sound like that would be alarms or indications for immediate intervention. I would want the proper help under any circumstances, so that being 100% honest is always the way to go, especially when it comes to mental health. You MUST BE HONEST with the professionals if you are to get a proper diagnosis and proper medcation and care. Please, you do need help,you need it NOW, and remember if it means a MH, it's not a lifetime commitment,rather a temporary solution until they have you taking the meds you need to live as full a life as possible- as quickly as possible. Be good to yourself, and especially when it comes to health,be it mental or physical, I've learned that you MUST ALWAYS BE HONESTif you want the best professional care. G-d Bless.......

[jc99502]

Originally Posted by WelcomeToTheJungle

I don't know if this might be triggering for some people.

I thought my Dr was going to refer me to CAMHS, which could take several months for them to see me, but it turns out I'm not. My mother got a phone call today from some people from Psy-something (we didn't hear it clearly) who are coming to our HOUSE. I am really worried, what if it turns into an interrogation? Why does there have to be two of them? Are they going to make me go to a hospital? I really don't know

But anyway, it has taken less than a week for them to get back to us, and usually I heard it takes more than a month. I know my Dr was concerned, but I didn't know it was this bad.

Also I know I should tell them everything to get a proper diagnosis. But are there some things that I should refrain from sayings? Like Fang (who really doesn't want me to tell anyone about, or the government from my world will find him). He can go through two personalities; Fang (bad/normal) and Knight (good). He told me all about him the other day, and the memory seems fuzzy. Anyway, he has told me to hang myself or terrible things will happen (parents dying etc) and I am so scared. I feel bad everyday because I get images of them in pain and suffering, and I can't do anything to stop it. I also see what is supposed to be my future (these actually sometimes comes true). Also the OCD intrusive thoughts are here a lot and it seems triggered. To be honest I just want to stuff myself with medications, at least then I'll be a little "normal".

I feel very suicidal a lot. But I'm scared of doing that..I couldn't do it to my family. Also I'm seeing random patches of colour everywhere. I put it down to wormholes from my world (I actually see random holes sometimes too).

But I don't think there is really much wrong with me. I know people wouldn't believe me when I talk about this stuff and just put it down to psychosis...

If I told them this would they put me in an institution??? I'm 15 in the UK btw...
If this is in the wrong forum then sorry.

I think any forum would do. I hear voices also, yours telling you to hurt yourself are wrong, you know that because you are to valuable a person. I decided a long time ago to live by 2 words. HARM NONE. This includes yourself. Hold onto that thought and don't feel bad about telling a psychiatrist about the voices. What you have is an illness that CAN be treated with the right meds. It may take a short time to work but it will work. You are not crazy you are ill. Cooperate with a psychiatrist and your life can become much easier and the voices will be manageable.

[XAutumnX]

I told my therapist I was hearing voices once, they made me go to someone higher up to have a psychiatric evaluation. (I'm in London). Anyway when I got there I was completely honest as I have nothing to loose. I was told that since the voices I heard wasn't people controlling me or telling me stuff to do be in bad or good; I don't need further investigations in this. However I was told had they had personalities of their own that was telling me to harm myself or others and controlling me then I could either go into voluntary inpatients or have a more regular round the clock care as a outpatient.

Like mentioned above there is nothing to fear, they have your best interest in mind and will only try to help you.

Keep us updated.

[(JD)]

I doubt you have to go anywhere you don't wish to go. I don't know what your diagnosis is... or if this is part of finding out... but since your voices have names it suggests to me that it's part of a dissociative disorder which doesn't do well on some medications. Can you ask for a psychologist who knows about trauma and dissociation? IDK what the sentiment is about that area of disorders, if in the UK they tend to lean towards schizophrenia like they do in the US (and it's caused a big number in misdiagnosing unfortunately). You need someone to help you find out what part of you wants to die and why, but if medication will numb you away from thinking that way and keep you alive... then perhaps...

Do you know which way your mother leans? I think you need to share some of your fears with her, and let her share with you, if she will.

tell them...they can't help you if you don't let them know about it...i wouldn't worry so much about fang...they will deal with him...seriously it's better to tell than to have to remember what you said & didn't say & try to keep track of it all...now that would make me crazy!

this way if you say everything then it is all out there & nothing to have to keep straight. i doubt they will scoop you up & run right to the institution...maybe just hook you up with some dr's & a therapist (or nurse) & get some meds for you...this way you can go on with your life & keep fang at bay.

"fang"..i like the name...i'm weird but it makes me smile..good luck. let us know what happens.

[SoupDragon]

Within my work I came into contact with someone who was having a psychotic episode, the crisis team came out to her, but she was not hospitalised. She was seen on an outpatient basis by the early intervention team (in the UK). So my experience is that as we all have to function in society, wherever possible hospital inpatient care is avoided and care is provided within the persons home - hospital is only considered when there is an over-riding need.

I hope you are able to be honest with the people who come out to assess you, then they can really give you the best help.

Take care - Soup