[finieas]

For 3 months I have negative thoughts every single day and in every single hour I'm awake. Those thoughts are doubts about anything. I doubt that I will fail to achieve my goal, I doubt that I will not be able to protect my self, I doubt that I will let my self down, I doubt that I forgot to lock my door, feed my dog, ... and when I stop doubting, I doubt that I will have those doubts again. It's insane !
I know those thoughts and doubt are totally irrational, since I proved them wrong many times, yet I could not control them. They just popped up in my head, I tried my best to out-talk them but rarely succeeded and became so depressed.
I consider myself a positive and confident person, then why is this happening ? Anyone know how to cure?

Originally Posted by finieas

For 3 months I have negative thoughts every single day and in every single hour I'm awake. Those thoughts are doubts about anything. I doubt that I will fail to achieve my goal, I doubt that I will not be able to protect my self, I doubt that I will let my self down, I doubt that I forgot to lock my door, feed my dog, ... and when I stop doubting, I doubt that I will have those doubts again. It's insane !
I know those thoughts and doubt are totally irrational, since I proved them wrong many times, yet I could not control them. They just popped up in my head, I tried my best to out-talk them but rarely succeeded and became so depressed.
I consider myself a positive and confident person, then why is this happening ? Anyone know how to cure?

They could be part of intrusive thoughts, in OCD. They are thoughts that you know are irrational, but can't help asking for constant reassurance/obsessing/worrying and being scared of being scared etc. Some books on controlling obsessive thoughts might help (my doctor ordered me one) and maybe talking to your GP?
Good luck

~ WTTJ

[finieas]

Originally Posted by WelcomeToTheJungle

They could be part of intrusive thoughts, in OCD. They are thoughts that you know are irrational, but can't help asking for constant reassurance/obsessing/worrying and being scared of being scared etc. Some books on controlling obsessive thoughts might help (my doctor ordered me one) and maybe talking to your GP?
Good luck

~ WTTJ

Thanks a lot for replying. What's the title of the book your doctor suggested ?
Recently I have also developed phobias like the fear of heights, which I never had before

[spondiferous]

Hey finieas. Sorry to hear you're going through this too. Right now, as I write this, I am bombarded by intrusive thoughts of self-doubt, self-sabotage and self-harm. I am depressed anyway, but more so over this. I'm not really sure what to do about it either. I feel like I'm losing more and more of myself and my ability to live my life. Just know that you are not alone, if that helps at all. I can't really give you any pointers since I'm not through it myself yet. I have some plans today with people that I really want to cancel but I think, after reading your post and knowing how hard it can be to get out of isolation mode, I am going to get out there and follow through with them anyway. I hope you have found even a little solace in the last couple of days since this was posted.

[spondiferous]

Finieas, sorry to hear you are going through this. I have OCD and I too have intrusive thoughts. Not just the 'disturbing/disgusting' kind but also I am plagued by self-doubt and insecurities. This has made my life unmanageable in the past few weeks, to the point where, today, I am tempted to just disconnect from everyone and everything since contact with people and the rest of the world is overwhelming and seems to only escalate the situation. I hope you have found some solace in the last few days. Apparently CBT can help with some of these symptoms, though I haven't taken it for OCD, only for panic disorder, so I can't recommend it from personal experience. Today I really wanted to cancel all my plans and not go out or see anybody, or do anything, but I think after reading this and knowing I am not alone, I am going to do it anyway. I hate thinking that this thing could win.