[Switch]

I know that sounds ridiculous... but in context I thought it was a catchy title.
(likely not that triggering, but I put the symbol on there just in case)

I haven't been doing well. I have done nothing but watch TV (mostly Stargate SG1, but 2 movies as well yesterday) for 3 or 4 days strait now. I have blown off all other appointment, haven't showered, and only get up to pee or grab food (not very much I might add). I just upped my dose of lithium to 450 (just starting) and I believe I am dehydrated and have starved myself for 2 possibly 3 days. I've felt sick, lethargic, and miserable the whole time.

I realized yesterday that every time I watch something happy I get upset by it. Every time I watch something sad it doesn't phase me. And now I'm noticing that I can't watch SG1 without reading what happens in the episode before hand, and reading ahead of the suspense. I can't even watch a basic episode. It's taking me hours of pausing, freaking out/emotional outburst, then play for a few more moments, to get through 1 episode with a lot of suspense in it. Even though I know what happens. I am completely unable to handle the emotion that comes with suspense, to the point of physical pain and emotional outbursts.

Any comments?

[Perna]

Okay, you aren't taking care of yourself, are messing with your meds without your doctor's input and things are going haywire with your perceptions/emotions. They're the least of your worries! Stop with the TV watching, get a decent meal and adequate hydration; call and get a doctor's appointment asap and get yourself back on track and quit playing with yourself; you're not a toy!

[Open Eyes]

Hi switch, Whoa, it sounds like you may not be doing well on that higher dose of litium, sounds like you increased the dose on your own? It sounds like you're very confused right now as well. You need to talk to a doctor Switch and please do not self medicate, everything we take changes our chemical balance so it is important to pay attention to how you react on medication and what your discribing should be discussed right away with your pdoc or whoever is overseeing your medication and mental health.

I am glad you at least came here to talk, but you really need to talk to your doctor Switch, Right away, don't take anymore meds until you do please.

Will you please let us know your ok and that you have spoken to your doctor Switch, we will worry until you tell us your ok.

Open Eyes

[Switch]

Sorry for the confusion: it was my dr who upped the lithium on Monday. I have an appointment in 2 weeks with him as a check in. I also have an appointment with someone else for something bipolar related who is one office over on the 20th. I can mention it then.

I'm not that bad today. I made peanut butter cookies for my mom when she gets home... they don't taste too good but I don't like cookies very much so I'm biased.

Other than the tv, lithium, and suspense I can relate to this entirely. Get up and out
Meanwhile I need to get something to eat...maybe just maybe I'll go out and check the mail

[gma45]

Why? Sounds like depression to me, Whats going on if you don't mine me asking? Those are the things I do when I am depressed. I used to not be able to watch anything scary or suspenseful for fear I was going to have a heart attack, I slowly started watching suspense again and I am ok with it now but it took a while. Drink lots of water at least! Glad you are feeling somewhat better.

[roads]

Switch, you need to let your pdoc's office know your state on this lithium level. It may be the prescribed dosage but that doesn't mean it's a good level,for you. Please call & let them know that you aren't functioning about a sunsistence level.

Then please get up & take Perna's advice: "Stop with the TV watching, get a decent meal and adequate hydration." Add periodic bathing, dressing daily in clean clothing, leaving the house if for nothing more than to walk a few miles around it. You need to begin making a habit of self-care.