[Xambgii]

Ugh... I have so much creativity and inspiration that it's becoming too overwhelming for me to handle.
I want to do so many things at once. And I get once idea after another... after another... after another... after another. So many that it's only adding to that overwhelming-ness.
I try to write stories, poems, draw, sing, but nothing's working. I can't get it out. And the ideas just keep coming and coming onto me so fast.
It's getting so overwhelming that I'm on the verge of tears. My head hurts and I don't know what to do with all this sudden creativity.

[Open Eyes]

Oh Xambii,

Yes, I have had that happen too and I have to work on slowing down and making a decision on working on one thing at a time. Maybe if you worked out before you start being creative? You sound like you have a lot of extra energy come with your creativity.

I think it is wonderful that you are so creative.

Open Eyes

[Perna]

When I want to work on something, I keep a(nother) notebook open next to me and if I am "distrated" by other thoughts, I write them if I don't want to lose them and go back to what I'm working on. Ideas are only the beginning; it's hard work to create a whole piece.

[Xambgii]

I can barely even start on any of them. Because I switch so fast and so much that I don't even remember some of my ideas in seconds. It's only been a few rare times that I've been able to write anything down. But they all aren't very good because I have to write so hastily in fear of getting distracted again.

[pimples]

you appear to be at the height of a hyper manic episode and what you really need is some form of professional intervention ASAP before you spin totally out of control and become a danger to yourself,
call someone today

[gma45]

Have you tried any kind of relaxation? I find just closing my eyes and telling myself to slow down and just think of breathing helps me.

[Xambgii]

@Gma45: That never helps me. Trust me. I've tried.

Originally Posted by Pimples

you appear to be at the height of a hyper manic episode and what you really need is some form of professional intervention ASAP before you spin totally out of control and become a danger to yourself,
call someone today

I wouldn't be able to get it. My parents wouldn't think twice about calling someone because other than the overwhelming ideas, I've appeared fine to them. They don't take anything seriously until it gets past the point of serious.

[DaveyJones]

Dear gma45,

I'm afraid I have to agree with Xambgii... You describe racing thoughts to a T, yet you list your mood as depressed. Classic description of bipolar disease. From your reply I assume you have tried therapy? Just my opinion, but I think you should consider psychiatric help. Only a pdoc can diagnose your condition and start you on drug therapy if appropriate. Please believe me, the alternatives are not pleasant.

Whatever you do, please know that it is VERY hard to trust your judgement when you're in a manic state. Please proceed carefully and with guidance along the way.

[Switch]

Originally Posted by Xambgii

I wouldn't be able to get it. My parents wouldn't think twice about calling someone because other than the overwhelming ideas, I've appeared fine to them. They don't take anything seriously until it gets past the point of serious.

Break down. I know it sounds dramatic, but have a complete, unashamed breakdown. Throw things, cry, and scream until you feel better. Let it out.

Not only will this help you feel better, maybe get some of the energy out of your body, but it will also help your parents see. I use to hide my mania from my mom, and one day she was on the phone with me. She said I sounded like I was on drugs, and that I was having a fit at the same time. It freaked her out, and only after that did she admit that I was bipolar.

If not, try and get help on your own. I know I can't dx you, and that only a pdoc can, but I can tell you that I know what you're going through, and that you really need to see someone soon. This can lead to hell if you don't get help. I envy those who say they can do it without meds, because I know I sure as hell can't. I struggle to handle it even when I AM medicated. But it's not something to be ashamed of at all, imo.

I hope you're okay, and we're all here for you to give you strength and support and love. stay safe, and LET IT OUT!

ps, don't hurt yourself or others in the process. if you do or think you're going to, call 911, seriously. I know it might seem like nothing, but it's not nothing and it's very important that you stay safe.

pps, listen to DaveyJones, his words are wise.

[Xambgii]

Thank you all for your advice and support...
I'll try to get help.
And I'll try to let it out. But I have a big family with smaller siblings... I don't want to scare them. I've broken down something similar to that before....