If your illness was a person what questions would you like to ask them?

What would make you happy? What do you want?

Coffee? Tea? ...Rat poison perhaps?

Yes, I have found some answers to some of them. Aspects of me were definitely killed, and the course of what survived was irrevocably altered. I am very much here, and human, and alive. I am thriving and flourishing. I mourned that part was killed so profoundly, but it's gone.

I'll never fully understand what makes a person think that they can just take a life and bend it to their own ends. Lack of empathy seems a cop out, I think it is more self-centeredness and a bizarre and pathological elaboration of the sense of entitlement. It doesn't affect me now, but remains somewhat sad all around.

We get to define now who the real "us" is. We get to chart our own course and decide. We no longer have to bent by others.

I'm sure there is a glorious person in you, just like the one I found in me.

They can kill a lot, that's for sure, but never ever the best parts. There exists a persistent and indomitable spirit in us all.

Which drugs do you want???

Can I offer you a pain killer?

Thanks, elliemay. I like "persistent and indomitable" better than "optimistic" - more accurate. This is a good graduation / commencement speech! T and I have our initial phone meeting anniversary on the local U's commencement weekend at the end of April - now we have our speaker

Of course, I will be happy to speak. I do require a significant fee for the full length version of the speech. My posts here simply do not provide for the full effect really.

Technically it's more of lecture as there will be a test immediately afterwards. Semantics shemantics of course.

It is no trouble to mete out parts of it here and there, as I do not have to grade 1000s of papers.

perhaps PC could implement a scan sheet type system.

Well I was thinking it was more of an HONOR like when Pres Obama spoke here - we're not some podunk town! but oh yeah, it IS just me and T - 2 copies of the test needed only. no wait, 6, mini Moishe and My Little Pony will also be in attendance... Do all the Play-doh figures have to answer? Oh - I guess EVERYBODY in the toy basket will want to come out for this... Can you just skype instead??!!

I would ask...what the hell is it going to take to get rid of you?

I do offer sype services as well at a significantly reduced rate. I would encourage all the toys in the basket to be in attendance, of course. If you have a big wheel in the basket, then the fee will be waived entirely. Especially if your therapist sits on said big wheel throughout.

I'm hard pressed to find a town where Obama hasn't spoken recently, but I will accept the honor of speaking with you, your therapist and the toys.

First I would say; Thank you for saving me when I was little.

Then I would ask; Why did you change from helping to taking over my life and causing more problems?

Then I would state; I can drive now, hand over the keys. Good bye.

My question is, why? It's the simplest of questions, and yet I can't seem to find any answers.

I think of my depression as a monster inside of me.
It wants to hurt me.
It wants me to hurt myself.
It tries to kill my love and break my heart.
It has made me forget what Hope is and believe that I was born to die.
I ask it every day:
What is your problem with me exactly?

What a great post. I'm sure someone has probably posted this already, but here's mine:

Why me? Why did you choose to hurt me? Not that I think anyone should suffer from mental illness, but there doesn't seem to be much in the way of a genetic component to my illness.

Where did you come from?
Are you ever going to leave, or will you always follow me like a shadow?

I used to call my depression "the black beast" (in a purely non-racial way of course), and can relate so much to your post.

Don't allow your monster to destroy you. Make friends with your monster, as a means to an end (of your monster).

If my "illness" was a person, I would run away.

But it isn't. It's just me.

My main question that I'd like to ask is, "This is really old and tiring, enough already. Can't we try something new like a better functioning version for a change?"

"Why are you afraid?"

When am I getting my upgrade?

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause You and I
We were born to die

-LDR

You think you're going to get the best of me?

You're wrong

Why did you chose to curse me?

Why in the ( BLEEP ) did you pick me???? What did I ever do to you?????

1. Are you real, or are you just a quirk?
2. Why did you choose to affect me of all people?
3. Are you going to get worse with time? Are you going to get better?
4. Will I need medication to control you?
5. Is there any way I could harness you and use you for good instead of self-pity and laziness?

I'd like to be a wizard again, that was fun.