[Bathony]

I know it sounds totally pathetic but no one reads my posts- not here, not on any other forum. Literally no one, not even the moderators who (I assume) have to read posts to control the forum. It's another example of my being worse and unworthy of anyone's notice. It's a proof I don't deserve anything good and everyone has a negative attitude towards me. I know I'm stupid I care about this but I take everything personally and it does hurt me. I wish I lived in pre-internet times. It's like a game which rules are clear to everyone except me. I lost a 'friend' because I kept talking about such disappointments and she finally told me she has her own problems and would not care about mine. So not only some anonymous internet people but also my 'friend' are my enemies. Is that wrong to look for suport online? I understand I'm left alone to (not) cope with my issues.

[Trippin2.0]

I'm really sorry you feel so unworthy... Sending lots of positivity and good vibes your way, and a if it's not too weird for you...

[*freak*]

People do read your posts. To check how many people read your topic you can check the number of views (on the right of your thread's title).

As for the replies, that's a question that is periodically asked here. PC is a huge community, so not everyone can read every single new topic: there's too many. Some of the "regular" members (myself included) usually try to write a reply in those topics that go unanswered even if we don't have much to say. And this is so no one feels ignored or not important enough.

There really is no reason for you to feel unworthy. I firmly believe that every human being has an innate worth, regardless of how bad life's treating them, and so do you.
Also, people often click the "thanks" button if they read but didn't have time to reply or wouldn't know how to support you. It's good to check the bottom of your posts for that, so you know people care even though they couldn't reply.

Take care.

[Stoda]

Originally Posted by Bathony

It's another example of my being worse and unworthy of anyone's notice. It's a proof I don't deserve anything good and everyone has a negative attitude towards me.

It's not proof. Many people are busy, self-absorbed or just plain don't know what to say. I read your post, I think you are worthy.

I think the friend you lost simply couldn't handle both their own life and yours, it was probably too much for them. I think you could really benefit from seing therapist. I know I see one and it took a while to find the right one, but I did and you can too. And it can make a world of difference.

[Fuzzybear]

Sending positive vibes!

[shezbut]

I second Freak's response to your post.

As for the replies, that's a question that is periodically asked here. PC is a huge community, so not everyone can read every single new topic: there's too many. Some of the "regular" members (myself included) usually try to write a reply in those topics that go unanswered even if we don't have much to say. And this is so no one feels ignored or not important enough.

This is a huge daily goal that I have for myself. On bad days, unfortunately I don't reach that goal. But that doesn't mean that I don't care. Or I view those people as "unworthy". I've felt as though I was pointless being in life too many times to count. I don't want others to ever struggle with these same emotions, and feel alone with it. You aren't alone honey.

Best wishes to you!

[Yoda]

Welcome to psychcentral.

Sometimes we pour our hearts out in a post and get no response. I think it happens to us all. I recall one particular post I wrote that people read but nobody posted response. Then a year later someone reread my post and wrote a comment and a half dozen other people also posted responses. I had written about a painful, difficult time and I think people initially didn't know what to say.

I hope you find PC helpful.

[SoupDragon]

I've just checked and there have been 54 views of your post so far.

As highlighted above people may view but not respond for a variety of reasons. For me sometimes I just can't grab the right words out of my head and worry about not being helpful, then get stuck.

I am sorry things are feeling difficult for you right now - but this really is a great place to be - Soup

[IceCreamKid]

Originally Posted by Bathony

I know it sounds totally pathetic but no one reads my posts- not here, not on any other forum. Literally no one, not even the moderators who (I assume) have to read posts to control the forum. It's another example of my being worse and unworthy of anyone's notice. It's a proof I don't deserve anything good and everyone has a negative attitude towards me. I know I'm stupid I care about this but I take everything personally and it does hurt me. I wish I lived in pre-internet times. It's like a game which rules are clear to everyone except me. I lost a 'friend' because I kept talking about such disappointments and she finally told me she has her own problems and would not care about mine. So not only some anonymous internet people but also my 'friend' are my enemies. Is that wrong to look for suport online? I understand I'm left alone to (not) cope with my issues.

I know I have read at least one of your other posts. I often read the forums when I am just waking up or just getting ready to go to sleep unless it is the weekend, so I don't always comment. You're not "worse" nor are you unworthy of anyone's notice. I do not have a negative attitude towards you. You are deserving of good things and I highly doubt you are stupid. I understand 'taking things personally' -- it's the only way to take things, really. People who say something cruel and then rail at you to "don't take it personally" are trying to distance themselves from their own cruelty. You can approximate pre-internet times by just turning off your computer; I think about that a lot except I do have a few friends I communicate with only through the internet and I would miss them. But you could have friends only in your own community, and you could go places with them and dine with them and do fun things with them if you wanted to and you had mobility or they came over to your place. I don't think it is wrong to look for support online; I do that; but I also try to offer my support to people in real life. I will look for your posts and offer what support I am able, how's that? I send you love.

[redenz91]

Hi Bathony, I am new and guilty of reading and not commenting
Thats because most times I dont know what to say...
But I am replying to let you know that this was read.
And I hope to be courageous as you and actually POST my emotions
Hugs!!!