[RoamingMind]

I'm so depressed that I can't focus or make progress on anything.
Everything is falling apart and I'm losing my grip even more, I already know
I can't pay the bills this month and I'm just starting to give up.
The probability of success is low.

I wish I could go to the mental health hospital, but if I do that then nothing will get done and nothing will get paid. It's so ****ing ridiculous. I'm supposed to go there if things get really bad, but then I can't because of other concerns. Seems more like I'm supposed to fall apart.

So so sick of coming here and whining and talking and whining. Don't know why I'm doing it again, but I'm here.

Originally Posted by RoamingMind

I'm so depressed that I can't focus or make progress on anything.
Everything is falling apart and I'm losing my grip even more, I already know
I can't pay the bills this month and I'm just starting to give up.
The probability of success is low.

I wish I could go to the mental health hospital, but if I do that then nothing will get done and nothing will get paid. It's so ****ing ridiculous. I'm supposed to go there if things get really bad, but then I can't because of other concerns. Seems more like I'm supposed to fall apart.

So so sick of coming here and whining and talking and whining. Don't know why I'm doing it again, but I'm here.

I'm sorry. That is a tough situation. Not knowing your living arrangements it's hard to give anything but generalized suggestions. If there are no dependents or pets involved perhaps you could make advance arrangements to defer the bills and go to the hospital. Then you could get yourself sorted out and catch up on the bills when you get out and get yourself together.
Does any of that sound workable?

Maybe ask your mental hospital if they have an outpatient program so you can live at home and still get some help.

[RoamingMind]

I don't know. I can't go, I guess I'll check about outpatient.
In all actuality it doesn't make a difference one way or another. It's all an endless cycle
in the twisted game called life.

Only game in town though Good luck with the outpatient thing.

[Nicks_Nose]

First of all....give this a read.

http://sourcesofinsight.com/10-disto...king-patterns/

I was in the same position less than a year ago. I had mroe support around me than I thought. I felt like I was the only person capable of holding everything together. When I finally realized that it would have to be treatment or my two sons would be very sad young men....even paying rent was a threat. I had to get help. I realized once my counsellor (outpatient services) taught me of the 10 thought distortion patterns, I found many of my worries amongst them. While I was feeling shame of putting "hardship" on others, they were happy to be able to help me, because I was their concern and it was rewarding to them to know they could somehow help. I am also learning about managing this unrealistic sense of guilt and shame I feel for not being perfect. I had to allow myself to be dependent on these people so that I would be able to regain my independence for a longer and better life span. The less others have to worry about me.....the less guilt I feel. Read this article and the first way to help yourself and others is to let them help you.

[gma45]

Sometimes I feel like that wish I could just get away for awhile, but I think the out pt thing sounds like a good idea. I just wish I could find out pt help myself as I can't afford anything right now myself, about one more month then everything will be gone if I don't figure something out. I understand it does suck sometimes! You are not alone, keep posting for some reason it does help. take care.