confused and overwhelmed

I am so confused and overwhelmed and very old buttons are being pushed and I want to run away. I don't know what I need from anyone here. I am in pain and worry and shame and guilt. I am lost and I can't see the sun. I am hurting pretty darned badly. It stinks.

Awww...

(((((((wisewoman))))))

I'm sorry that you're feeling like this. It does stink.
I hope you feel better soon, thinking of you.

Dear Wisewoman,

I am here if YOU need to talk? - just PM me and I will chat with YOU for as long as YOU need... I am going through some of the same feelings as you are today, and yes - it STINKS!!

(((((((( HUGS )))))))) ~ ~ (((((((( HUGS )))))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Thanks canders and rhapsody. I don't have a clue what will make it better and I am about too tired to even try to explain it. My son thinks I am mean and always yelling and am horrid to him. and much more. I feel like a world class screw up. I want a re-do button.

((((((((((( wisewoman )))))))))))))

Sorry you are feeling like that.

Thinking of you.

I understand that feeling too.... but just remember that the offer still stands if YOU wish to talk - talking always leaves me feeling much better from with in, it clears my mind so I can then see a solution.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Sons and daughters aren't easy. I don't even have any, but I know my sisters and I have given my mother a really hard time.

You're not a world-class screw-up! And I think I could use a re-do button myself. I think most of us would.

*HUGS*

((((((((((((((wisewoman))))))))))))))

Well, thanks everyone, hubby says son is twisting things about and I am not doing the things he says. I just know I feel like crap. I feel like it for many reasons but if one of you want to rob a bank for me I will feel a little better, just don't get caught. It's funny but being seen as unworthy by the business community hurts. Weird.

I think I am just going to mope around and feel sorry for myself and tomorrow I bring an older friend to easter to be with family members a few hours away. I will do it for her but I need to say I am not at all looking forward to a bunch of strangers and an Easter dinner when I am vegetarian. Oh well, it will get my mind off myself. Thanks for all of the support. I think that I am having trouble discussing this stuff even in T. I have put up a wall and it's not coming down easily, even if I don't want it there. All I can do is keep trying.

WW, for your own sanity and well-being, you might want to rethink fostering again! Seems like your plate is constantly full already. A child or more would only compound your existing problems.

Wisewoman you know you can PM me..I am guessing your son is right the kid knows how to play you That said..what do you think Jane would say and do? Can any of us do some of that for you? I have felt you absence.....but am glad when I hear from you in PM when you are silent

hugs