[Big Mama]

It's been one of those days. The kind of day where you cry from frustration, you cry from anger, you cry from emotional hurt, and you cry for who knows why. The water works won't seem to turn off. All is fine for a little while and then it comes back. Watery eyes, tears, and pain. What in the world is going on with me. This happens from time to time. I'm not heard, I'm not understood, I'm hurt, no one will listen, my words get twisted to hurt me, there's no way to win. All I can do is cry and cry and when I'm done crying cry somemore. I just hope and pray no songs on the radio makes me start up again. I hope I don't see anything on t.v. that turns the flood gates to wide open. If someone asks me whats wrong, all I can do is set and cry. I can think what I want to say but I can't say it. I don't want to be touched. I don't want a hug but then again I do. I'm afraid of my own pain. I'm afraid of my own hurt. I'm lost and confused. It takes a good nights sleep to make the next day better. So I know tomorrow will be better. But I have to get to tomorrow in the meantime. I'll get there. I'll go to bed soon,cry some more, take a zanax if I can't make things settle down and tomorrow will be a new day. If not I go to the T on Tuesday. Then she can help me deal with me. Anyone out there I don't know what answer I am looking for I just want to know some one hears me I guess.

((((Big Mama)))) I hear you....you are not alone. I have had those kinds of days too. They are exhausting and frustrsting. Mostly exhausting. Hugs to you from across the miles, your friend,
Rose

[lynn P.]

(((Big Mama))) - I hear you and sorry you're having one of those days. Try tomorrow to do something nice for yourself and I hope you feel better soon.

[Bipolar1Disorder]

"Mama said there'd be day's like this there'd be day's like this Mama said."

[Big Mama]

Originally Posted by Bipolar1Disorder

"Mama said there'd be day's like this there'd be day's like this Mama said."

Thanks. I smiled. I like that song.

so sorry your day has been so difficult.

hope tomorrow is better for you

[Open Eyes]

(((Big Mama))),

I think you should make an appointment with the gyno to check your hormone levels.
If you are experiencing menopause or a change in estrogen you can cry a lot like this for no reason.

Just something to check out.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[lonegael]

Leaves you feeling raw, huh? HUGGGGGSSSSSS. re. the above, the hormone changes can affect how well your meds work, if you are taking any. Make sure you check with your T. on this. I had to stop taking a med that worked well with me for this reason. Hope you feel better soon.

[Big Mama]

Thank you all for your kind words. I am doing much better. My H and I have huge issues. Between life and possible hormones it's any wonder I get along as well as I do. Thank you for your suggestions. I'm 38 and per-menopausel. My hormones could be going wild. Maybe my life has just gone wild. Who knows. It's better now and I hope it stays that way.