[Distantmalice]

i'll keep this brief.
...
there, im done.

no, but seriously.

"living in seattle, feeling so flawed.
a future violinist that would never break the law.

lonely dreamer, somewhat a downer
lonely dreamer, hoping not to fall..

depression,hopelessness,outcasted,worthless
desperate to make a life that won't be those things.
way too shy, but i try..
im hoping i can come here for some options:P"

well...that was a stupid poem i wrote:P
look. the point is..
im lonely in seattle, i really don't know what to do, or how to ask, because im too shy..
but i really want to get a job so i can get my own apartment.
but theres so much stuff i don't know about, like paying taxes or whatever.
and i just don't know what to do.
i just feel so stupid.. you know?
i mean, im an adult.
and i don't know the first thing about...anything!
i feel panicky.

[possum220]

What do you like to do? Maybe you could go to school and get some qualifications to wind up with a job you are happy with. Nobody expects you to know the ins and outs of the tax system. If you have questions ask some-one. The dumbest question is the one that you don't ask.

It takes a while for people to get where they are financially. I was deadly shy when I was your age. I still have my moments, but life has a way of changing some time. Take any job you can for the moment. Then you will be with other people and make contacts.

You're not stupid.... you found you're way here.

Loneliness can be horridly painful at times but there can be moments of fun and joy and lots of cool experiences for you.

You may have the body of an 18 years old and technically an adult, but we are all learning new things every day. All of us no matter what the age. I am still trying to work out maths in my head.

Ask questions and we will try to answer them. But you arent alone even though right now it might just be in cyber land.

People here do care.