[Xambgii]

I don't like it when my friends associate themselves with other people. It's not out of jealousy, though. It's more like "That person hates me now. They'll never talk to me again because they have them. They don't want to be around me. No one likes me and would be with them." even if I barely know the person, I get so upset when I see them talking to others and I feel bad about myself. "It's my fault they're leaving me," I'll think. It doesn't help that I'm so much trouble to everyone around me. I'll be so happy one minute then my mood shifts and I blow up and start arguing, accusing them of implying bad things about me. When I'm joking everyone takes me so seriously. sometimes I accidentally cross the line. I try to be wary of other people but I can't help it. It's bothering me so badly.

[valyn9]

Yeah, it's hard for me to not feel a little bad about myself when someone I like to talk to is talking with someone else because I don't feel that open to just talk with anyone and I guess I'm a little jealous or feel less like the person is like me because of it.

I also get taken kind of seriously without meaning to be. It's kind of sad. It makes me feel out of touch with people.

[Xambgii]

I don't understand other people at all. And that frustrates me so bad. I don't understand why everyone else does the things they do. sometimes, when someone finally gets me to talk they get irritated and mad and it feels like they're all challenging me for being upset.
I can't help that I'm upset....
I'm out of touch, like you described it, far away in another place they don't want to be, yet, I'm right there

[Miswimmy1]

hmm it could be anxiety? it sounds like you get jelous of ppl when you see them talking to others because you are scared that they will leave you...

[kyouma]

i know that it's not true that they would leave you forever because they found someone else, and not your fault - any of you - it's only because people always talk to other people... but i feel like that myself haha i feel i don't have much to offer. tho i don't really have friends now, i used to feel like that, i remember it very well, and with my girlfriend i can't even describe my thoughts when i saw her talking to new people at her school... and differently from when i was at school, i don't know if it's changed times or different place (because we don't live near each other, different states and a long distance relationship), the ones at her school would always ask for hugs, even call her 'my baby' (i cried when i heard that haha she said that guy called everyone like that, he was one of her older friends by the way)...
i know it's insecurity and anxiety, i feel like those friends should talk to us if they know we are like that, to make us feel good about ourselves, because sometimes they don't even notice you know? perhaps we should talk to them... as i talked to my girlfriend (very few times as she noticed it before and she herself would calm me down and say she was with me, she chose me and i should be happy - which i was and then i would just want to hold her forever)