[mister-a]

I really don't know where to head, I don't know why I've chosen the A levels that I have, I think maybe it's because it's what people expected, I'm not really sure how to go about posting this, or what will be relevant for me to say or irrelevant so I'll try my best to make sense, I'm sorry if I don't.

To say it bluntly, I guess I really don't care about things anymore, I'm not sure if I really did to start with, and there aren't people in my life, the people that I see around me though are all working towards a passion, and they're brilliant, amazing, I don't have anything like that, nor am I brilliant or amazing in any aspect, I don't mind that I just don't see why I'm following a path if it's all so meaningless and insignificant. Life, really, can be considered so insignificant, when you think about the universe, and nature, and how even though life is equal on any scale, it is practically negligible among the stars and the universe. Some people give their lives a meaning, because life can be precious to humans, even if on a more generic scale it is worth nothing - and I really don't want this to sound like I think everybody is insignificant, because I don't, people give themselves significance, but I really don't care to give myself anything significant, there is nothing to give or work towards.

Sorry I guess I'm tired maybe? I don't even fit in enough to have a friend, so I just read and become part of that world, but now it's scary because I can't trust what's real, because maybe it's not real, and everyone, sometimes I worry about what they're thinking, if maybe they know what I'm thinking, things are so apathetic though so maybe they can't, what do I do? It's clear that this all seems so illogical and silly, especially since I'll never be able to say enough to get my point across and have somebody understand, because really we are all so different that we will never truly understand anybody fully, not even if we are all happy, it will be so different between people, I'm not sure what I'm writing about anymore so I'm going to stop here

[gimmeice]

Hi Mister-a, I think sometimes it is easy to lose direction in life. At the moment I am feeling quite insignificant myself. My husband has his business which he loves and everybody else seems to be working towards or for something. I work with my hubby but it isnt something that excites me. Just finished a two year degree in September but now the field I studied seems completely uninteresting to me. I considered re-enrolling in college but what for? will I get another degree that I am completely uninterested in?

Maybe we are just in a funk and will find something to look forward to soon. Sending you some giant hugs

[gma45]

Don't compare yourself to other people, They my look good on the out side to you, but they probably have problems too. Do what feels right to you. We may be insignificant compared to the universe but we do still matter.

[carrie_ann]

hi mister-a

things may have changed since my day (i'm a dinosaur lol) but A-levels are done between 16-18? so do you still live at home? is it possible to have the financial support from your parents to take a year out and then resume your studies? sounds to me like you need time to figure some things out?

[mister-a]

Originally Posted by carrie_ann

hi mister-a

things may have changed since my day (i'm a dinosaur lol) but A-levels are done between 16-18? so do you still live at home? is it possible to have the financial support from your parents to take a year out and then resume your studies? sounds to me like you need time to figure some things out?

Hi ther Carrie-Ann , I'm 16 yep I live at home with my parents but we seldom talk, they wouldn't be able to cover the funds for me to do that but Im not sure they would if they could :') I really just don't know where to go, with anything, sorry >.<

[carrie_ann]

nah mister-a, it's us so-called grown-ups shud be sorry we don't make sure the resources are there for kids! don't know if u have a guidance counsellour at skool these days but i doubt they'd be able to help any except talk. i guess nothing has changed much here from my teen days .... sorry i can't be of any practical help but always here to talk if you need, ok?

Originally Posted by mister-a

I really don't know where to head, I don't know why I've chosen the A levels that I have, I think maybe it's because it's what people expected, I'm not really sure how to go about posting this, or what will be relevant for me to say or irrelevant so I'll try my best to make sense, I'm sorry if I don't.

To say it bluntly, I guess I really don't care about things anymore, I'm not sure if I really did to start with, and there aren't people in my life, the people that I see around me though are all working towards a passion, and they're brilliant, amazing, I don't have anything like that, nor am I brilliant or amazing in any aspect, I don't mind that I just don't see why I'm following a path if it's all so meaningless and insignificant. Life, really, can be considered so insignificant, when you think about the universe, and nature, and how even though life is equal on any scale, it is practically negligible among the stars and the universe. Some people give their lives a meaning, because life can be precious to humans, even if on a more generic scale it is worth nothing - and I really don't want this to sound like I think everybody is insignificant, because I don't, people give themselves significance, but I really don't care to give myself anything significant, there is nothing to give or work towards.

Sorry I guess I'm tired maybe? I don't even fit in enough to have a friend, so I just read and become part of that world, but now it's scary because I can't trust what's real, because maybe it's not real, and everyone, sometimes I worry about what they're thinking, if maybe they know what I'm thinking, things are so apathetic though so maybe they can't, what do I do? It's clear that this all seems so illogical and silly, especially since I'll never be able to say enough to get my point across and have somebody understand, because really we are all so different that we will never truly understand anybody fully, not even if we are all happy, it will be so different between people, I'm not sure what I'm writing about anymore so I'm going to stop here

From the sound of what you have written, it appears you may be depressed. Have you sought counseling? You don't want this to go on too long as it may get worse. Please seek counseling today.

Most people are NOT brilliant. A lot of people do not have a specific career calling in life. However, it is possible to give your life meaning in other ways, e.g., doing volunteer work (helping others is rewarding), starting a family, setting a new goal (e.g., going back to school) or finding a new hobby (a great way to meet others).

You appear to be very articulate and could be a writer, maybe even a philosopher. You could be book reviewer. (You do seem to have a passion for books.) You could teach literature. I bet you might make a very good college professor. If you are a good reader then you are capable of studying many things. So, keep reading until you find that passion. Of course, if you keep reading the same old kind of books and don't push yourself, you may never find out what that interest is. So, keep reading but push yourself to read new things. All the best to you!