Please help! So anxious. Going to fail chemistry exam.

I am having an anxiety attack and it is because of chemistry. My exam is in around ten days and i dont know anything. Its all my faughlt i know that. But what i dont know is what im doing. I have not paid attention all year and kept saying "ah, it is future myselfs problem". I have already completed 70% of the course with a 74% (btw im in gr. 11). 15% is the exam and 15% is the lab expirement. It is a miracle i have 74% so far and dont want to go any lower than that. I dont even have notes to study cause i never copied the board. I dont have anyone to borrow notes cuz no one likes me. The teacher left to have a baby and we are stuck with a supply who doesnt speak english or know anything. I dont even know what im supposed to learn. Im so stupid. And i heard peoples school habits never change. So ill be doing the same thing and fail university. And waste money and be homeless. And ill make my family so ashamed. And ill be in trouble and my dad will yell at me a lot. Im such a loser. I really dont even want to be here anymore. Help i feel terrible.

Also i quit drinking alone for new years. Could this be what is making me so anxious? And if so should i continue drinking till my exams are over? I dont think my drinking is the problem but i think it may contributing to my anxiety

I dont even want to live this life anymore. I want to leave it and live a new one. Im not actually considering running away but thats how i feel. There is nothing good in my life except that i get the essentials like a roof food and even school. Besides that theres nothing i like about my life and im trying really hard to see the good side of things.

Dear Friend,
I am more upset about your seemingly depressed state than your grades, by the way my favorite subject was Chemistry. May be able to help. Its the basics you have to keep firmly in mind then all should go well. However coming back to your deeper problems......I somehow sense that frustration in life has lead to your habit of drinking, and also perhaps many other things. Sometimes "fate" can be cruel. It might be bent on breaking us mentally, physically, emotionally and financially over and over again or constantly till we get bitter, resentful, feel useless, helpless and lost, it is at this time that we resort to the only things we know to bring us happiness, so we can forget the past as well as what remains hurt deep within at present. I offer my friendship. I also teach 11th grade students, chemistry and could give you some useful basics, as I find if you don't know the basics, you cannot follow anything!! Easy and natural. You are precious, You are also well able to make a GREAT Success of your life. Much Love, Your Friend, The Friend.

K thanks. My only problem in my life right now is my upcoming exam and i am not depressed but thnx for your concern.

good luck with the exam.

just remember, do your absolute best.

all you can do