[lost_lonely]

I still find this a safe haven, I still look to this place for comfort and support, even companionship at times when I really need it. In my opinion, this is still a great site, and really enjoy being a part of this community. We ALL have our moments, we ALL have the right to think and feel anyway we want, and to believe in anything we choose. Saying that, we'll all have moments when we are happy, depressed, and just better able to handle our problems than at other times. I still struggle my own share of demons these days, and still battle suicidal thoughts and impulses. We ALL do, that is why we're here, sharing our struggles, triumphs, laughter and tears. Yes, we can discuss serious issues in the forums that should said once in a while, then jump into chat and share some laughter and good humor for a couple hours. That's the reason why I enjoy coming here, being able to openly discuss one's feelings and daily struggles, AND receive a healthy dose of comic relief and understanding at the same time. A resource like this one is incredibly valuable. I can say that I'm glad to be a part of this community.
But there has been some discord here lately, so maybe what everyone needs is something positive to make our little community a safe retreat for everyone.
Even in the darkest moments of our lives, there has to be a few sparks of goodness left, even if it's just one or two small things. Maybe what we need to do is spend some more time focusing on those postive things, and maybe it will help us fight our personal battles, and serve to make this community stronger and a greater resource for us all.
Okay, I'll start:
1. I'm grateful for my health
2. Grateful I survived my attack, grateful knowing that it will make me stronger and more empowered in the end
3. I'm grateful for all the friends I have made here, and all the help and support I received from them
4. Finally, I'm grateful for my AWESOME support system at psych central, and all the people here who have taken the time to listen to me and offer one of the most precious things I could ever ask for-the gift of friendship.

If anyone wants to jump in, feel free. Let's see how many happy thoughts we can get on this post. I don't know if this thread will catch on or not, but I see how certain posts do, and some arguing has resulted in a few of those. I am not in any way saying that people can't discuss their different views or ideas, I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea. I'm not trying to start a fight or anything, I just want to help everyone else feel better about their lives and in my opinion, this wonderful haven, like you have all helped me in the past few months.
I understand if not everyone finds it safe and comforting here, everyone is entilted to thier own opinion, I realize I have no right to tell them otherwise. I just wanted to put this post out there, in the hope that maybe while actively searching for even that one spark of happiness in our lives, we can come to realize that we will all be okay, and we can ALL overcome our problems and eventually find the peace and happiness we're all looking for.
Again, thank you all.

(((((((((((((LOST_LONELY)))))))))))))
Thanks for your post; you're such a strong young woman; I'm glad that you've decided to surround yourself with positive support.
I too am grateful for the forums here, and for all the friendships that I have made here, including mine with you.
I am grateful for my faith, without it I wouldn't have the strength to continue on from day to day.
I am also grateful that I have come to Houston, Texas; what started as a vacation has turned probably into a permanent move.
I'm grateful that I have reconnected with some family down here, I'm not SO alone as I have felt in the past.
I'm grateful for good health, except for my mental health, I am in great health, and I feel blessed.
Thanks lost,
Jon

lost_lonely,

If I had the oomph back I would definitely 'catch' onto this thread!!

I'm still running on low but I can offer this:

I'm so grateful for your list of positive things.

Knowing another survivor has taken empowering steps for his/her healing helps my heart gain a little more strength for my own healing.

Bless ya for that.

You never know with threads here........it might catch on when you are least expecting it.

kindly and with great admiration for you!!!,

<font color=purple> --zh </font color=purple>

[wisewoman]

Hey Lost, great post. What can I say that is positive about my life today? Got paperwork done, Have my health for the most part, have my wonderful puppy dogs, Have a mostly loving nuclear family, Have a home that the motgage gets paid on every month, Have people here who undestand and help support me. Laughing in chat is cool.

[SS8282]

Great attitude ((((((((((((((((((((((lost)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm glad that my doctors are on my side, and I have all of you here. ) Thanks.

[lost_lonely]

((((((((((EVERYONE)))))))))))) Let's not give up quite yet. It's tough to picture when we're feeling down, but none of us know what is really around the corner. I'm praying for us all.

<div class="foot">(Edited by lost_lonely on 08/24/04 11:31 PM.)</div>

[krzyk101]

Lost-Lonley.

I decided to start my moning by readint this post first, to start my day with a positive note. Thank you all.

I am grateful for my coumputer, without it I would not be able to come here. Thankful for being alive.

Take Care,
Chris

______________
~KRIS~

(if I didn't help, please know I do honestly have good intentions & speak through personal experiences)

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[jagster]

Nice post. Im having a kind of rough morning today, so its a little hard for me to think clearly and positively.

Im thankful for your nice post.

Jag

[lost_lonely]

What the hell is the point? The summer is so far gone now, and in the cold of the upcoming winter, I've lost everything. A great job, the hospital I had turned to for support, the few people who still bothered with me, it's all gone now. I'm all gone. Even here on the forums, I haven't posted in months and I doubt anyone has even noticed. Have you?
I deserve whatever terrible thing happens to me. I've stopped eating and started cutting, forever hurting. Sorry, but I've used up all the positive energy inside me. I need a reason to live, a second chance. I've learned that it doesn't exist.

God help me.

[Rapunzel]

((((((Lost)))))))

I'm sorry you feel that way. It sounds like you are caught in one of those vicious circles. You want to be noticed, and want people to care, and even to notice that you are being quiet, and would like someone to draw you out, and make you feel wanted and needed. But at the same time you withdraw and are quiet. Is it because you feel unwanted? Feel like you need to test people and see if they notice? But if you aren't posting, you don't get responses, and then you feel like nobody notices you, and think that you are being abandoned.

I think that most of us go through that. Sometimes I hide by only replying to other people, and secretly I'm wishing that someone would notice that I hurt too (and sometimes they do). I've noticed that you were online a few times lately, but I haven't been able to keep up with more than just a couple of the boards here, so if I don't see you post, for all I know you might be posting someplace I haven't had time to read. We are getting to have so many people here, there is no way anyone could respond to everyone, but on the plus side, there are so many people that someone will probably respond. If you need to be noticed, or need some support, you need to come out and say it though. Otherwise we might think that you're content just to read.

You know, I asked my T to notice if I stopped writing to her, as if I did, I would probably need to be encouraged to pick it up again. Guess what she said? She won't enable me by agreeing to do that! It felt like a slap in the face, but she's right.

Winter is hard, and it can seem hopeless. Hang out with us, and let us know you are here. We'll get through it together, ok? You always have friends here.

Rap

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((Lost))))))))))))

I am sorry you are feeling that way ... I had noticed you weren't posting, but, like Rap said, there are so many people here now, that it is impossible for everyone to keep up with everyone I hope you post more, and I know you'll get plenty of support.....

Good post Rap, maybe when I grow up, I'll be able to write posts like yours (((((((((((((((Rap)))))))))))))))

[(JD)]

I've been missing many of our members... but can't recall their s/ns... yours included! Sorry... (I warned everyone how bad that kind of my memory is..) sigh. been going through so much myself... only good excuse I have. glad you're back though...

[lost_lonely]

Just thought I'd bring this up again-I feel invisible everywhere and needed a boost of something positive. Everything changes, everywhere.

Lost-Now and Forever

[pegasus]

((((((((((((((((((( lost lonely )))))))))))))))))

You are not alone.

[lost_lonely]

Thanks (((((((((pegasus))))))))))))

[January]

((((((((((( Lost ))))))))))))

You are not at all alone!

Hugs,

Jan

[lost_lonely]

((((((((((January)))))))))))) Thank you!

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( lost_lonely )))))))))))))))))

We are here

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Meta]

Lost_lonely,

I hope you won't mind but I looked at some of your past posts and see you are a mom of a very young baby. When my daughter was that small, I felt taxed beyond my endurance physically and emotionally. I wonder if you are seeking out support for yourself as a mom. I never did and it was so arduous I am just now recovering from the first two years of my daughter's life--and she is 8 now.

((((hugs)))))
Meta

[lost_lonely]

Thank you all for your support! I didn't mean to whine or complain, I just had to bring that post up to remind myself of how I used to feel. I was feeling ignored by someone, and I was just in a really bad mood. Thank you for listening and supporting me in my hour of need. You have no idea how much it meant to me. Thank you all!

Lost

[lost_lonely]

((((((((((Hugs to all))))))))))))))