a difficult time

I am going through a very difficult time emotionally right now as a parent, financially, morally, with illness and with myself. I am not avail for support, sorry all. Just maybe if I can do this week I will survive and all will settle. Too many long stories.

Just do "now" (((ww)))) ttyl

((wisewoman))

Take care of yourself first. And yeah, take it one day at a time.

I can really relate to what you are saying, Wisewoman. I hope you get things sorted out and that you will be feeling better soon. Please take good care of yourself, you are in my thoughts.

Best Wishes,
Zen/Sujin

I'm sorry you are struggling so badly right now. Just do what you need to do for yourself right now and don't worry about us...you need some extra TLC right now.

Don't worry about supporting others. Take care of yourself.

Please do take care of yourself. Sending good thoughts your way.

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Please take good care of yourself and let us hear from you when you can.

Hugs,

Jan

(((((wise)))))) please take care of yourself and remember you can always pm me if you need or want to.

I've been thinking of you, WW, been missing you. I hope all settles down soon. I'm here if you need me.

Love, Candy

To Everyone above, thank you for your support. I swear I am just about floating and dealing when bang, another one drops. Details later. Thanks again.

My son and his girlfriend crossed a line of no return and they were aslked to be gone by today. It has been sheer hell here. He trashes the house, broke mega glass yesterday and got in a confrontation with youngest sister.

Last week they had vodka and lemonade in the fridge and youngest, 18 drank it. She had no idea. She felt violated and angry and then he assaulted her by holding his hand over her face and lighting a lighter in her face. He basically tortured her. Instead of waking us up she went walking with her cell phone and I am woken by the state police dispatcher calling me for her cell number. Seems he had taken off drinking and she was trying to get him caught and locked up. The 18 year old size 3-4 female walked about 7 miles that night on empty roads as she indicated to me that the police were bringing her to a friend's, they brought her only part way. She tells me she was perfectly safe. And then yesterday I am upstairs working on college stuff and he is down there with a beer. She asked him to bring it outside and instead of coming to get me she confronted him and then there was a great scene in which beer was spilled all over and she erased a blog of his. I told her she needed to come get me and that one does not rationalize with a mad man or a drunk man and that she was vindictive for erasing his blog.

Then, last night I am hearing my son on the phone, still no apartment and I really mean he needs to be gone today!!!!!!!!

Lots more, I am on second course of Prednisone for breathing and feel like poo a lot. I like to breath though. it goes on......... Just an update.

Not out today, a day in hell for me. He has tomorrow till 4:00 or I will call police. He is irrational and hateful. No logic. He couldn't understand how I could get a restraining order. He is so ill. My husband is mad at me because I gave them until tomorrow. He is working tonight. No one even has to see him. Which is how I arranged things for today but it didn't work out. I mean he didn't leave when the house was empty. I have a very long story to tell someday.

wise I am so sorry you are going thru this!! but this is your home. how old is this son? hon you have to protect yourself and the rest of your family. take care hon. (((((U))))

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Please take safety precautions. Call the police and have son and gf evicted for safety's sake.

Hugs,

Jan

Hang in there WW. At some point things have to settle down, I'm sure of it. I know that son and gf in your house has been a difficult situation for you, and it sounds like letting them keep on as they are isn't doing you or them any favors. Now they will have to learn to be responsible for themselves, and I hope that they are able to pick up that lesson quickly. You will have to keep standing your ground. Let us know when you need support or want to tell more of your story. I'll be here ready to listen.

Rap

Thanks all. He was supposed to be out by yesterday and was not. I spoke with him and told him by 4:00 today he must be gone and he reluctantly agreed. Lots of issues around all of this. I am on prednisone again/still and I got horrid chest pains while out with my daughter. I didn't tell her what was happening but had her drive to where a friend would be so I could assess if it were cardiac or stomach/esophogus related due to the prednisone. After walking and eating a roll of rolaids and a few quarts of water the pain mostly vanished. I really thought it was cardiac. I have no history or sign of cardiac disease. PHEW!

Okay, here is the story.

My son has bi-polar and it seems to be getting worse. It's untreateded and he does a lot of alcohol and weed. He is out of control. My basement and garage are trashed, broken glass everywhere. Stuff thrown, mayhem. He assaulted my youngest. He moved out yesterday but still has some things here. He is absolutely delusional nuts right now. He took my grand puppy, the dacshund and I don't feel they can or will care for him.

The sherriffs department is looking for him with papers. I have no idea.... He had arraignment on dui today. Again have no idea. Don't want to be around him, don't trust him, don't like him. He has trashed my home in a year's time or less. I walked into his room tonight and got glass in my foot. I am going to finish emptying it and let daughter get started with painting and plastering, again.

I have 4 holes in walls and the siding damaged from him throwing a sledge hammer at it. "wood siding" I have bills I can't afford because I just kept enabling him. I have garbage mixed in with my Holly Hocks in back. His smelly chickens are here and half of them are genetically engineered meat birds that if they are not killed soon will get broken legs nad die. We are vegetarians here.

Came home to no food for his chickens and ducks, either pen, and the goats locked out of the barn because they kept getting at the chicken feed. Too bad.

My lungs have been ill, my youngest has had relapse with ocd and my middle was afraid to be around son.

taxes are a year behind, bills up the wazoo and no income.

I feel like a horrid parent to my son. I feel guilty and angry at the same time.

My new little girl got burned on the moped the other day. I had nothing for children meds.

I feel loving toward this child, and as though she is mine. I want to protect her. She will eventually be ours but the state is so messed up right now I could scream. Worse then when we started this 20 years ago. It is an act of unselfish love and I wish that all children could be cherished.

My son was cherished, adored. I am confused. I have two very responsible girls, both who has been through such crap and still move on. I am awed.

I always wanted to have kids and protect them and worship them etc.

wisewoman, i'm so sorry that all of this has happened to you. there are some children that are going to act out and be irresponsible regardless of how you feel about it.

i know that you are hurting and i wish that i could take some of your pain. it's a horrible feeling when a child does something that is so hurtful to a parent. i've been there.

if i could, i'd be on my way with the sour cream cookies and tea and we would sit under a tree and just talk the troubles away. love, pat

Things have felt better with him gone. The chickens went to a friend's today. Daughter put first coat o salmonberry paint on with her birth sister. I got to see my 18 month old almost grandaughter. We almost adopted the pair but the older sibling was too much for us with her behaviord. I am so glad to see them together and am glad to be part of the babie's life. The little one here, five, is a hand ful and I am so in love. Man does she take energy! Especially now as she is reciting each letter I type. I hope she will become fully my daughter soon in her heart.

Son is worrisome but at least it's not in my face and the dog is here for now. He is part of this family and sleeps with us.

Yay dogs!!! TC

wise it sounds like you are a little more relaxed now. I am happy for you!! hug the little one for me!!

Yay to you both and your support. Thanks. Yes, am feeling more relaxed.

I hope today and your tomorrows will be more peaceful now!