[BashfullOne]

I have manic depression. I'm tired of living. I just want to go home.
I haven't had a mammogram in 10 years, per the insistence, several calls to me, I finally had one! Lucky me got a call to come back for a second mammogram of my right breast and a possible ultrasound. Yay! I got to have an ultrasound because they found a mass in my breast. Just met with a surgeon and found out that between 1-5, I have a 4 chance of it being cancer. I get a biopsy in 3 weeks. Could explain my weight loss, changes in appetite, and taste. I can't stand coffee any more after drinking it for 38 year, I can't drink sodas any more, taste is off, and most foods have lost their taste. It old be the Nutrasystem I started on, or is it something else? I guess I'll find out in 3 weeks. The *** is deep inside my breast, it couldn't be felt during my monthly checks. I have lumpy breasts so the doctor said even if it was lose to the surface I might have missed it! Just call me Lumpy!! Haha!! I'm keeping a sense of humor, and trying to stay positive. But just in case, I'm checking out wigs and head scarves, and turbans. A different look for every day!! Cool!! My p-doc is worried about me - he is stressing I stay positive and not fall into depression. I'm to call him when ever I need him. He's pretty awesome!! I love the guy!! He's honest and pulls no punches! But I'm going through my stuff - cleaning house Justin case! It's just stuff!! Right?

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Aren't they nice, making you wait three weeks for the biopsy? Then who know how long for the results. Grrreat!!!
Life can sure turn extra-lousy ... I'd be optimistic about it because I just always expect things to turn out well (& am amazed if they don't).
I'd be detoxing my body, juicing, reading up on nutrition, taking up yoga if you don't do it already, finding a good massage therapist--generally getting my body in great shape.
The stuff in the house can wait. Take best care of wonderful you, right now, BashfullOne.
roadie