[Neversolost]

I've lost my place in society. I've lost my purpose. I've lost my place in life.

Will I ever find it again????

[Silent Void]

Originally Posted by Neversolost

I've lost my place in society. I've lost my purpose. I've lost my place in life.

Will I ever find it again????

I just posted in your other thread. It's going to take a lot of time for you to recover. I'm 11 years into the process and still grieving. I've only just gotten to the point where I don't continually think of my father and talk to him.

I know it's painful but, unfortunately, all you can do is endure. Take care of yourself. Spoil yourself. Do things that will distract you from your grief.

There is no magic that will erase your loss. Take care of you first.

[Neversolost]

I'm not too sure my mom's passing is the REAL problem ...
I don't like choices I've made in life and I don't know if the experience with my mom is only bloating things. My younger sister has stage 4 BC and on third round of chemo. My husband (not legal, but together 21 years) has a congenital defect and nearly lost him a month before my mom died) plus we are strained, and my dad needs me not only because of what we shared but for legal.

I'm not as strong as everyone thinks ... They have no idea how lost I am.

[spondiferous]

It sounds like you're going through a really difficult time. It is my experience that we typically go in and out of having a 'place' (in society, in our families, in our own lives), kind of like a spiral. It sounds like you've got a heavy burden to carry right now...do you have any support for yourself?

[Neversolost]

Originally Posted by spondiferous

It sounds like you've got a heavy burden to carry right now...do you have any support for yourself?

Other than my H, no support. No one understands. I tried to explain to my older sis that I felt caring for mom the way I did hurt me mentally ... She just shrugged (it would be a thorn in her life to really care).
Biggest hit was losing my job ... Possible defamation of character lawsuit. Losing my salary and benefits put me over the edge literally.