[sbcovino]

Hi there, I was just wondering if anyone could point me in the right direction.
Im just going to blurt some stuff and if anyone could help that would be awesome.

I saw a psychologist for a few sessions, and she told me she thought I had some sort of personality disorder. I left because I didn't want to be diagnosed and on the books.

I believe that everyone is conspiring against me, and try to catch people out all the time. When someone asks me to come to something, or do something, I always feel there are ulterior motives, in an attempt to humiliate me.
I find myself believing that everything, for example the way sticks are on a pavement, or how things are arranged are how people are going to treat me, or do to me.

I hear voices occasionally at night time, and this is usually just random conversations as coming from the walls or ceiling, usually quite loudly.
I also hear music when its quiet and can never find it, it just goes and keeps appearing. I also hear people screaming, and shouting my name amoungst loud noises, like the shower or cars going passed.
Also last night I was laying in bed watching a movie, and my wall turned into a full view of a paddock outside, and a fence beyond that where someone was looking through it staring at me.

If anyone can help it would be greatly appreciated.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by sbcovino

Hi there, I was just wondering if anyone could point me in the right direction.
Im just going to blurt some stuff and if anyone could help that would be awesome.

I saw a psychologist for a few sessions, and she told me she thought I had some sort of personality disorder. I left because I didn't want to be diagnosed and on the books.

I believe that everyone is conspiring against me, and try to catch people out all the time. When someone asks me to come to something, or do something, I always feel there are ulterior motives, in an attempt to humiliate me.
I find myself believing that everything, for example the way sticks are on a pavement, or how things are arranged are how people are going to treat me, or do to me.

I hear voices occasionally at night time, and this is usually just random conversations as coming from the walls or ceiling, usually quite loudly.
I also hear music when its quiet and can never find it, it just goes and keeps appearing. I also hear people screaming, and shouting my name amoungst loud noises, like the shower or cars going passed.
Also last night I was laying in bed watching a movie, and my wall turned into a full view of a paddock outside, and a fence beyond that where someone was looking through it staring at me.

If anyone can help it would be greatly appreciated.

let me get this straight when your treatment provider was trying to diagnose (tell you what your problems are called) you left because you didnt want a diagnosis... and now you come here asking us to diagnose you (tell you what your problems are called/point you in the right direction)

Im sorry but only your psychiatrist can point you in the right direction/tell you what these symptoms are...

we dont tell each other what their problems /diagnosis's are....online websites are not supposed to take the place of seeing a psychiatrist.. this website even has that wrote on every page at the bottom of the page..

All we can do here is tell you whether we have had the same issues you have and what our own treatment providers called those things in ourselves...

looking at your symptoms I have had them and my treatment providers called them many different things depending upon other accompanying symptoms....

hallucinations
delusions
paranoia
sleep deprivation
lack of food
lack of fluids
psychosis
medication problems
Multiple Sclerosis
depression
anxiety
anemia
bipolar disorder
possible paranoid personality disorder
possible schizophrenia
possible other physical health issues
and many others too..

if you google these symptoms you will find millions of millions of results that share these same symptoms.

again only your treatment provider can tell you what this is with in you...

my suggestion if you really want to know what this stuff is then go back to your psychiatrist and let them do their

[Kate King]

sbcovino-

I can't help you with your symptoms, but I wanted you to know that you are not alone in the whole diagnosis concept. I was misdiagnosed several times to the point now that I have no idea what or who I am, BUT, getting a "diagonisis" for me, got the ball rolling. You have to start the process somewhere, sometime if you want to truly get relief from the hell you live in. That's at least what I have found to be true.
And for me, I had to get to a point where I said to myself, "do I really want to live the rest of my life like this because I am afraid of having some code attached to my name?" A code is just a string of letters and numbers and a chart is just a chart. But those codes and charts can truly bring healing.

I wish you the best of luck and hope you are able to find the help that you are desperately looking for. ((hugs))

[jewel2560]

Hi, what you're going through is really scary I can see that. You know something is not right because who would want to live like this.

I know you said you didn't want to get diagnosed or labeled, but without it you cannot receive the help or relief you desire. And honestly besides you and your psychiatrist/pschologist no one else ever has to know if you don't want them to. Legally they cannot say anything to anyone unless you are a serious danger to yourself or another person. I sincerely hope for your own benefit alone, with no motive of my own, that you go back.

To share my experience, just four months ago I started experiencing hallucinations and paranoid delusions myself. I was terrified. I was hearing music where there was none, screaming while I was in the shower, music I knew and love was altered when I listened to it. Those were my auditory hallucinations, I also had several visual hallucinations where black clouds of smoke would enter my body. The paranoid delusions, which is seems you may have as well made me several times believe people were doing things on purpose to make me upset of uncomfortable. I was just on edge, I started freaking out at a car dealership while waiting for repairs and I believed that they were making me wait longer because of reasons that later made no sense to me but I left the place crying. I called my psychiatrist, and he put me on a new medication that stopped all of those things within 5 days.

Being diagnosed, the stigma attached, I understand how hard it is to accept. But accepting it is what helps you get the correct treatment so you can feel better and have a better future. No one on here can diagnose you but most of us have already been through it. And we can help you by helping you come to terms with it as well. If you need anything, message me. I may be young but I've spent 13 years dealing with medications, diagnoses and all that comes with it. Please help yourself.
Julie