Bipolar/BPD/Anger Management/Being teenager

I'm 17. As I grow up, I feel really easy to get angry especially towards my mom. I will snap if she screams my name when she calls me. I also get really annoyed if she ask me to do this or do that. Basically, I feel irritated if my mom ask me to do anything. Here's a little background. Mom used to hit, slap,pinch, pull my hair, call me dog, or anything like that when I was around 3-8 years. It has stopped now, she's also become very nice. But I can't get close to her. Is it related to my behaviour towards her?

Also, I look around the internet about bipolar/ borderline personality disorder. I don't think I'm bipolar, but I think I might be BDP. My mood can easily change. Bad mood/good mood can last in minutes to hours and instantly change. For my social life, I don't have many friends. I sometimes really want to hangout with them go everywhere but sometimes I just to be left alone, in my room, do nothing. When I feel really angry, I really want to punch something but I just end up slap something really hard or throw pen or write with all the energy on paper (paper sometimes rip). I used to think about suicide like a long time ago, not anymore though. I like to speeding, it makes me feel free/ less stress, I like the adrenaline. Also when my friends hangout with their other friends, I felt left out, alone, empty, sometimes cry.I think they just come to me because their other friends are busy. I also sometimes feel I'm superior/ smarter than anybody else because I have great score in school (I keep telling my self this is silly). I sometimes cross someone wrong. I easily judge people negatively. In doing homework, its easier for me to work at midnight to morning. I lack of sleep. in school days probably just 3-5 hours a day. sometimes I feel more energetic that way sometimes I feel really tired and hard to get up from bed.

What do you think? Is it me being teenager or something is wrong?

The teenage years are the toughest years mentally that you'll ever have. Everything in your body is changing so fast, and that includes your brain too. The chemicals in your brain are changing -- the hormones and chemicals are trying to level out to an "even keel" so that you'll feel "Normal" (whatever that is) and all of this is going on in your teen years. It's total chaos. And while this is all going on, you're expected to act normal. Well, that's very difficult to do. You want to cry a good share of the time and usually for nothing! You want to punch the wall in, and that's usually for nothing too! Your Mom expects too much of you because she sees you as an adult, and you're NOT -- you're still a child -- don't rankle at that because you ARE a child.

Many of your problems could be due to hormonal changes and just growing up. But it would take a doctor/psychiatrist to be able to diagnose you. It would be best for you to see your doctor -- he would know if you should be referred to a therapist or not. Ask your Mom if you can see your doctor. Tell her you have some issues you need to discuss with your doctor. Then he can make the decision as to whether or not you need to be referred.

I wish you the very best. I wouldn't go back to being a teen for all the money on earth. It was AWFUL! God bless and please let us know how you come out, will you? Take care. Hugs, Lee