[wadingthruemotions]

I wanted a broader audience than just those in the BPD or BP forums soley, hence the other category.

So I have realized, I think officially and finally this time, that I need to completely back off my current destructive and impulsive behavior I have been allowing to take over my life and me to my core.

This is going to be the most difficult uphill battle as I have tried this before, over and over again and have failed miserably each and every time. Though this time something is very, very different. I can't explain it well in words, it is mostly an underlying and sense that if this isn't the last time to shape myself up I won't have another try at it period. And I like my life at its outside, comfortable house, we can buy things if we want them (within reason), we can redo the bathroom now, I do like those things. I have always been able to function I just implode and go down a very bad path until it catches up with me.

I have BPD, bipolar II and anxiety in case that matters in your response.

I need to know how to go about this? I mean if this relates to anyone and you have real experiences you want to share i am open, i also answer PMS. I just really need a good conversation on this to figure out how do I cope this massive of a task.

[NWgirl2013]

I feel your pain. My situation is different & so for me, when I start doing the wrong thing, I step back. I am quiet so as not to say the wrong thing. I take my time. I don't put a deadline on things, "last chance" kinds of words, because that increases my panic & stress.
I try to Truly Let Myself start each day with a clean slate....it's all anyone has & that levels the playing field in my busy mind. I wish you Extra Good Luck with this ...

[cool09]

Easily irritable, agitation, easily distractable, over-sensitivity, etc. are symptoms of BP. They are not easy to find relief for especially if you are a rapid-cycler. The anti-psychotics are prescribed for agitation, rage that manic-depressives can feel but it's kind of hit and miss. You might not respond to an AP or partially respond or have bad side effects. But if you do get a good response and it lasts it's like night and day. I've only had a couple extremely brief periods where I found relief over last 25 yrs and I could not relate one bit to the way I felt before taking the med(s). Good luck.