[JoyDivision7680]

Alright, so I'm starting to lose interest in doing things I used to enjoy. For example, I bought a meet&greet ticket for a Napalm Death concert that's going to take place at the end of the month. I still love listening to the band but I don't feel that desire of going to the show, even though I paid a lot of money on the ticket.
Another example would be there's a woman I'm deeply in love with and I want to marry - she doesn't know me, she's kind of a public person, anyway, it's not what this post is about. The thing is, I began working out a lot more, reading more books than before (I would even finish a book in a few others), taking better care of myself, etc. Now, I still want to do those things, I still want to go and find her, but I don't feel like improving myself anymore, though I want to. And it's not like I'm lazy, it's just that I'm having a 'screw it, it'll work anyway' attitude, in two words: losing interest. What should I do? Is it something to worry about?

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My question would be, why are you having that "screw it" reaction? Do you feel that way because you feel your efforts won't make any difference?

It may be nothing, but you may be starting to experience some hopelessness that's often attached to depression. Keep a close eye on it.

[JoyDivision7680]

Nah, I couldn't be discouraged, because in the past four or five months my attittude and thinking has been absolutely positive.
Is it possible to develop depression while on antidepressants treatment? I was worried it's a sign of schizophrenia rather than depression.

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Originally Posted by MotherMan

Is it possible to develop depression while on antidepressants treatment? I was worried it's a sign of schizophrenia rather than depression.

I can only speak from my own experience, but I've had meds that worked for a little while, but then started not to work. So maybe it wouldn't be bad to talk to your doc about the feelings you're having and maybe upping your meds?

[JoyDivision7680]

Yes, maybe it wouldn't be bad to do that. Thank you. As a matter of fact, I'm taking natural antidepressants, because I'm a little afraid to see a psych and take 'real' medicine (I might be send to a hospital with paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis); I was diagnosed 'unofficially' by a person I know, who is a psychiatrist, but I've only talked to him in his free time, no paperwork involved. Should I go for an 'official' diagnosis anyway?

[spondiferous]

It's different for everyone, but I've been depressed while being on meds for depression. I am right now, in fact. So yeah it's possible. And that's what it sounds like to me: the initial stages of depression-induced hopelessness/apathy. It wouldn't hurt to talk to someone about it.

[JoyDivision7680]

It wouldn't, just that I am, well,frightened. I'm sparing of words because of my anxiety. In my short happy/maniacal moments when I'm in the mood for taking a walk or discussion I try to use words as short as possible and not to say very personal things. People won't have time to listen to me all the time anyway.

[gayleggg]

That's the good thing about PC. People are willing to listen. Don't be afraid to post how you feel. And yes, you can still get depressed while taking medication for depression. I would suggest you see a psychiatrist and get properly diagnosed and go from there. The only reason they would put you in a hospital is if you are a danger to yourself of others.
Gayle

[avlady]

My depression is constant it seems, i guess the meds keep it from overloading depression, I mean it keeps my mind stable even though i'm depressed still. I guess it is worse if i'm off the meds, so i can't really say i'm sure that that is what's happening.

[deelooted]

Originally Posted by avlady

My depression is constant it seems, i guess the meds keep it from overloading depression, I mean it keeps my mind stable even though i'm depressed still. I guess it is worse if i'm off the meds, so i can't really say i'm sure that that is what's happening.

me too...and it sucks albeit, I have only been on these meds for a few weeks, so I hope it gets better. This is out of the ordinary for me, as I am always manic when off my meds and smoking weed. New territory for me!

[gnat]

Loosing interest I things is one significant indicate of depression, and yes, you can get depressed while on antidepressants.

I myself have lost interest in just about everything I enjoy. The only thing I look forward to anymore is sleep and I need pills to accomplish that most nights. I am forcing myself to participate in activities I used to enjoy as the more I succumb to this urge to withdraw, the stronger it becomes. It's hard and I sometimes do withdraw instead, but I have found from time to time I find myself enjoying activities I used to enjoy after forcing myself to partake.

I wonder though if this is really your present in issue. It sounds as if your real concern is this unk,nown possibility of a schizophrenia diagnosis looming over your head. Schizophrenia is incredibly difficult to live with, I can only imagine, but in many cases people can be stabilized on medications. Perhaps researching this further could do you some good.

I have a problem with vomiting, often from stress although it often comes out of the blue. I avoided the doctor like the plague as I was sure I would be diagnosed with stomach cancer. Eventually I realized I was dying of stomach cancer whether it not I was treated and life was getting more and more difficult as my time hovered over a toilet bowl was increasing. I finally saw my doctor who diagnosed me with acid reflux and depression/ anxiety. I have been given meds and now only vomit when under extreme stress.

Perhaps your schizophrenia is not unlike my stomach cancer. Or perhaps you're right and there is a treatment available that could drastically improve your quality of life.

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[JoyDivision7680]

To tell you the truth, I am not sure anymore what my primary concerns are. I don't know what to say, what to do or what to think. I'm losing interest and coordinance, having sleep problems (it's almost impossible to fall asleep before 2AM), getting more paranoid every day and, like those wouldn't be enough, some short-lasting (like a second or two) visual hallucinations occurred.
I'm not worried I might develop schizophrenia, my uncle has it and he's one of the smartest and coolest (in his weird way) people I've ever met.All I want is to live at least one normal day.

I am sorry you have (and still do) suffered. You should try to diminuate stress 'cause it's really devastating when mentally disturbed.

All the best!