Help Me

Please please help me... I don't need another hospitalization, I need a friend, I need a shoulder to cry on, I just need someone to talk to. I don't have any of that here. I can't call my parents - they are only able to cope with the situation when things are going well, if things are going badly, they will fall apart in front of me. I have no friends here - I have no money, so I don't do bars, and I am unemployed, so I don't have a workplace where I can meet people. I try so hard to be nice and to be constructive and positive, and people just spit in my face. I HATE BEING UNEMPLOYED, [I] HATE HAV[I]NG NO FR[I]ENDS, [I] HATE [FEEL[I]NG [U]N[LOVED AND [U]NWANTED. I hate my life. I am trying to change it, but when you are broke and terrified of people, you don't know how to deal with it. Doctors and therapists don't care - they only care about the money you pay them, therapists are never available when I need to talk to someone, and the shrink won't even bother talking to me, they will simply overmedicate me and lock me up. Help, help, help, help help help help

I'm listening I can't promise help but I have good ears and sturdy shoulders

(((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) I know how you feel, I have been there got the T shirt, postcard and souvenir mug!
I have no family contact at all and only have colleagues and acquaintances through my trustee work but as for true friends who I can talk to about things I have none, so I would be happy for you to let steam off my direction, I am pretty thick skinned, I may not be entirely knowledgeable about how to help you but I am good at thinking outside the box to find solutions and I don't give up easily!

Hello indigo1050, we are here for you and you can type and tell us what is going on. If you need immediate help this page is good.... Common Hotline Phone Numbers | Psych Central

Hugs

A good way to develop friendships with others who are likely to understand is the Depression Bipolar Support Alliance, it's a group for people who struggle with life. Very condusive to forming true friendships. About to post the link, where you can put in your zipcode, and find one close to you.

I care about you. PM me anytime, hang in there

Find a support Group - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance

Thanks... I just feel so stressed and alone and like no one is rooting for me, no one cares, no one is on my side. I don't make friends easily to begin with, because I am very shy at first, and I don't wear my heart on my sleeve and immediately spew my life story for all to hear - I know that, in this day and age, it's considered "antisocial" to not be so forthcoming, but that is how I am. Aside from the fact that it's nobody else's business, I've been burned so many times that I will not risk my heart getting stepped on again unless I'm damn sure it will be worth it. I'm trying to find work so I can pay for my classes, my rest, utilities, all the things that everyone has to pay for. It's been slow going, however - Fort Collins is a college town, and the college kids have taken a lot of the jobs out there. I feel so misunderstood, like NO ONE bothers to hear my side of the story - they just assume that they know EXACTLY how I live and exactly what I was thinking, and usually, they are completely wrong. For a while I was confused about it. Then I became sad. Then I became bitter. Now I'm just angry over it. I feel like most people don't hear me - they don't listen. This makes me feel so isolated and shut off, and right now, it is simply too much to bear.

Thank you so much Junerain... I will look into this immediately :-)

I know how painful it is to be unheard and misunderstood. I swear alot of my adult "impairments" stem from living that reality during adolescence and early adulthood. Huge example, I was smart enough to know my issues weren't just teenage issues, I had close friends and none of them dealt with the shyt that I did...

My mom decided that I was a drama queen and pdocs are witch drs making the world a sicker place and she didnt listen to a word any dr said. It was very validating to be dxd bipolar and bpd as an adult.

Anyway, it not about me and I dont mean to make it so, I just want you to know that on some level I do get it.

You're not alone indigo1015!!!
I'm sure there are plenty people here, myself in particular would love to hear you and give you moral support. We all got problems and burden and as cliché as it sound, burden shared would make it lighter (it's Indonesian saying, not sure how to say it in English)
I hope you feel better and more hpeful today *hug*

You're definitely not alone at all!! Stick around for a bit and post here. Mostly everyone here is very supportive and understanding. Hang in there!! Help is out there!!

I am new here but you are not alone and at this moment you feel so trapped by your circumstances - which isn't helping - sometimes when I feel low I find it hard to face the world. I do hope you feel better soon xXx