[Big Mama]

Hi. I have not ever posted in this forum. but here goes with what I have been dealing with.

I have this strange feeling. I want to get out and roam. I want to shop, not buy anything, just get out and wonder around. I want to just roam. I go for a drive, or I go for a trip to town. It is like an uncontrollable urge to just get out and drive, or walk. It is most odd. I do recognize this feeling though. When I started dealing with all this stuff about Rape, I had an unexplained need to drive, to roam, to just get out and get away. I don’t know what to do other then do drive, or walk, or go to town. It is not distressing. It just feels like migration must feel to an animal. Something is leading me to roam.
Last week I went for a drive on the parkway and ended up in Town, 30 miles away. The next day, I went to the book exchange and once upon a child. The next day I went to town w/ my mom t help baby set my nephew. The next day I went to get groceries.
This week which was just yesterday, I went for a drive. I wanted to go for a walk or a trip to town but I didn’t want to go alone. I put it off for about 3 hours but finally went for a drive for about an hour and a half. My son went with me and we drove around here. We went less than 10 miles away. It doesn’t worry me, it is just a powerful sensation to go and roam he countryside. I noticed while we were out that I seemed super sensitive to noise. The radio seemed too loud. My son seemed to talk to loud. After we got home my little girl and I went for a walk just here around the property for a little bit. After the walk I felt a lot better a lot less restless. I don’t know why I have that feeling. Is it due to the weather, the change in temperature, or is it a sign of upcoming events I will be dealing with. I just don’t know. I have been working on CSA. And have started having some pieces of memories return.

Does anyone else do this. Any idea what this is or why I wnat to do this.

[healingme4me]

I get the urge to drive, take photographs. I'm not sure, the hows and whys, just know, somehow it's about trauma recovery.

[Big Mama]

I have found myself wanting to take photographs to, of scenery. It almost makes me want to cry for some reason. IDK, maybe it is due to preserving time and stillness, beauty and happiness which don't seem to exist much for me anymore. And it beings me a peace I don't understand.

I agree, maybe it has to do with trauma. Thank you for responding, at least I know I'm not alone in this.

[TwelveHours]

I do this and I get stir crazy usually after I go through something emotionally challenging/draining, ect. It can last for quite a while until I rediscover myself and feel content just sitting down and enjoying my own company. Idle time and an idle mind can bring about emotions that sometimes people are not ready to face. It is almost like an escape of some sorts that you may be trying to deal with for the time being. Even taking up new hobbies and new interests can be a form of escape. It's not a bad thing. It helps you get through tough times, but at some point you will have to settle down and allow that idle time to kick in. Maybe you'll be more prepared when it happens. That's just my take on the situation though.