Need some general advice

Okay. Since March, I have been in a Partial Hospitalization a Program for MDD and Suicidal thoughts as well SI. I've been doing very well for quite some time. I also have an outside therp. From Thursday afternoon to Friday evening, my sister, whom I live with, were fighting. This is the first time we have really done it since I moved in with her a little over a year ago. Anyway, by Friday night, I just couldn't handle being home anymore. I am emotionally hypersensitive as well and the fighting was bringing on thoughts of SI. But SI was it, suicide, I didn't think, was something I planned on doing. BUT, when I left to go to a hotel, I packed some razors I found and brought my 'stash' of pills 'just in case'. I left the pills out in my locked car all night though.

By the time I got to the hotel, I was feeling much better. Didn't cut, no suicidal ideation. And my sister was contacting me by email and apologizing and saying she was worried. Asking me to come home.

I told her I was okay and would be home the next day and I was fine. And that's exactly what happened.

Okay, here's my question. Since nothing happened it that I simply went to a hotel, does anyone really feel like the razors and pills should even be mentioned to my Case Manager? Frankly, I fear that she might threaten to hospitalize me again, or insist it is all me and I still need AD's? Which I do not want to deal with. I don't mind telling my regular therp all the details as she won't even go there...she has a lot more experience and education. But would it be dishonest not to tell my Case Manager? I'm torn between trying to be honest with my a Case Manager but fear that there will be an over reaction.

Thoughts? Comments? Suggestions? All appreciated.

Im sorry but we can not tell you whether you should or shouldnt discuss something with your case manager. only you can decide that.

what I can say is if this situation was me I would not hesitate to tell my treatment providers. the line in the sand for me that that my treatment providers can not help me to feel better and help me prevent the situation from happening again should I not tell them. For me it would be in my own best interest to be honest with my treatment providers.

for you, only you can decide what to do for you and your problems.

I think it's up to you whether you tell your case manager or not, I think it's good that you trust your therapist enough to share. I think you did well not to act on it and I think your T will say the same.

I think this episode shows you something. You had the strength to get away from the situation that was stressing you at the time. Food for thought for the future... Hugs

Thank you. I think that is what my therp will say too. I appreciate your thoughts.

I always think it's best to tell the whole truth, even though it's hard sometimes. If she thinks you need to be in the hospital or have some meds, so be it. It's not like she gets a bonus for every person she sends to the psych ward; she has your best interest in mind. Getting better is a long process and, the truth is, sometimes you need to take a few steps backwards in order to do it. It'll be tough, but I think you can do it!

I understand what you're saying, but frankly, she is not as educated as my therp. I've seen her over-react to me before. I think as long as I tell my regular therp, I'll be alright. And I will admit in group that I went to a hotel. If she asks me outright, I'll admit the rest, but otherwise I think I'll leave the rest for my outside therp.

Thank you for your thoughts. Much appreciated!