I keep having more and more dysphoria and confusion about who I am. I'm supposed to be "finding myself" right? But I look in the mirror and all I see is a stranger.

The best I can do is that I'm a musician. My favorite color is red. My favorite show is Spongebob. That sort of thing. But I don't know who I am…I don't know my gender (I know what "parts" I was born with of course), I know my birth name, but I'm not sure if that's my "real" name. I'm not sure if I have values, opinions, etc. and what they really are.

Does this make any sense to anyone? Since it doesn't make any sense to me...

[LadyShadow]

I define myself on what I feel. I really don't know who I am either. I live every day and I exist. That is no way to live. All I can say is that I understand what you mean and I sympathize. I hope you find out more about yourself and you are able to find out who you really are.

[gayleggg]

I'd say the first half of my life I knew who I was and what I wanted. Then depression hit and I've never been the same. I have no identity, barely have any feelings left it's like I'm empty. Only when the occasionaly manic episodes do I feel alive, at least, but for me those do not come very often.