[goldmaiden]

Ok let me give you some background on me.

Haven't had a job for five years. Don't want one- like a regular one by that i mean, dealing with money.

Been in hospital twice this year, just got out a few days ago.

I just don't know what to do with myself!

Now is the right time to do something, yet it is now Tuesday and i had Monday to start making some plans.

It's not like i don't have plans, i do, just now that it is time to act on them i get stuck.

I like chatting on the internet, i do that with no problem.

I feel like i am searching for something, yet i don't know what it is, or how i could help myself find it.

If i think about what i would LIKE to do, well it's just to hang out with friends really, i don't even know.

Like i have posted before, i want a boyfriend, but this is becoming too big a priority (and i know that you will all jump in and tell me to make it less) but in some ways i feel like i need that, need some intimacy before i can move on and do regular things!

I really feel like i am not doing anything because i am doing the wrong thing, yet what is the right thing?

Any advice?

Thanks...

xx

[(JD)]

I have to guess that you are not a teenage Just exited the hospital? Please be easy on yourself... that's a big transition.

Do you keep a goal list, or book? Why not start one if you don't, and then write down some of the things that are smaller steps towards the bigger goals?

Have you visited our Sharing Self Help Forum here at PC? drclay can help you determine what issue you wish to work on, and how to begin!

Good wishes!

[sabby]

((((Goldmaiden))))

I can only tell about my experience in life. I hope it helps.

A few years ago I was feeling very empty in my life. I had a husband and kids, and a full time job. I was busy, but not so busy that I didn't have time for something else in my life. It struck me one day that what I needed to do was volunteer my time. But at what??? I had absolutely no idea. So I made a list of causes that I was interested in and started making phone calls and doing research on them. I finally narrowed it down to being a Guardian Ad Litem for abused/neglected children. It was a wonderful experience and it filled my heart and soul so that soon I didn't feel empty anymore. I felt light, my heart sang. Even though the it was a horribly difficult job to do, I knew I was doing good for a child who needed someone in their corner.

Unfortunately, a few things happened in my life and I had to give it up. But, it taught me that we all have something to give to another human being, whether it be for the long or short term, it didn't matter.

If you decide to do volunteer work, you may find that it takes a couple of different places before you find your nitch, or you might hit it right on the nail the first time. The important thing about volunteering is that you end up receiving 100times more than whatever you give.

Not to mention, when volunteering, you get to meet some of the most wonderful people from all walks of life. It' s a great way to broaden your circle of friends and acquaintances

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the best!

Hugssssssss
Jean