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I had a long time when I could not do much at all....laying on bed, sleeping, watching tv - and mainly suffering from profound anxiety. I started slowly getting better in 2005 but tend to have that background anxiety very easily and occasionally get setbacks.
Now I've slowly built daily rhythm cos staying at home all that time being unable to function was kind of enough! I want to do things... simple things. I am doing my best having rhythm in life. Now I've been doing voluntary job, not too much maybe 2-5hrs a day...
And have pauses inbetween. Mornings are usually hardest because u gotta get going and start doing things.... these couple of days something has raised my stress... mom was diagnosed with cancer some weeks ago that must have affected my mood too. She was in surgery and she will know more next week.
I don't know what I feel about it? It just happened. I haven't cried cos I just don't feel like crying (more like can't) altough sometimes I'd love to. I'm on Cymbalta altough meds haven't been the answer for me... sometimes I think does that cause inability to cry or is it more like the anxiety that causes that.....
I used to cry alot when child. Anyway.....just wanted to write something what's going on in my mind.

I am so sorry about your Mom. My thoughts and prayers will be with you both.

so sorry to hear about your mum. you will find the strength to cope if you take things easy and look after yourself.

keep talking and saying how you feel, that's part of the process of healing and getting stronger.my thoughts are with you and your mum.

take care

jinnyann(kerry)xx