[ak482]

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I know I need help, but therapy is either too expensive or doesn't fit in with my work schedule. Mental health isn't always covered under insurances, so it's eating a hole in my wallet.

Now my therapist thinks I have Asperger's High Functioning. Nice, but for a hopelessly single person a lot of people think: Asperger's=Ret****. Why can't I just be a happy non-mentally ill person? It's eating me financially and emotionally

[Pikku Myy]

Super hugs to you

[ak482]

I should be mentally tough. Forget therapy and coddling, I just need to go out there and if the entire world thinks I'm the biggest dunce to ever live, take it. Social anxiety is just an excuse for me to be a lazy fat-*****

[Fuzzybear]

sending hugs

[ForeverLonelyGirl]

I can tell that you are really frustrated and angry. Trust me I understand and empathize! I am in the same boat as you as far as therapy goes. I cannot afford it where I live. I am in a poor state, so with some twisted logic, medicare programs pay less for us to get care. In other words we have to shell out big co-pays which makes it impossible for me to get help right now. Ain't that a beatch!

Having a mental illness is maddening. However, I have to tell you that having social anxiety is real and does not mean that you are a fat *** and lazy. I have it now to some degree because of the damage that psychotropic meds have done to me. You have to be very pro-active in getting your care and careful to not let them poly drug you and cause worse problems.

I can just offer my experience and understanding to you. Hope things get better.

[Altered Moment]

I hate it too. It's a part of my life and always has been but has had a big impact on it.

[Ripose]

I too hate MI, I am so, so tired of the suffering it causes and being over-medicated for years has not helped at all. I feel like I am no more than an experiment to my doctors. No one really cares.

I have found some relieve through self-help videos and meditation, I can only hope that it gets me to a "livable" level.

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by ak482

I should be mentally tough. Forget therapy and coddling, I just need to go out there and if the entire world thinks I'm the biggest dunce to ever live, take it. Social anxiety is just an excuse for me to be a lazy fat-*****

I think that's the mental illness talking...of course coddling may not be nessisary, however nothing wrong with getting support for mental health issues. If you try to just tough your way through it that can lead to burn out...I know this from experience because you can only suppress so much before it comes out some way. I might have completed college had I adressed my mental health concerns sooner and did a better job assessing what sort of stress i might endure in college but I pushed myself to just go off to another town and go to a state college rather than community...all my trying to be tough and just push through it without getting help and hoping It would just go away has only made matters worse.

[ak482]

I am thankfully not on medication, having worked with psych meds as well as taken them in my teen years, I know they don't always have positive effects. But mental illness is taking a toll on me and sometimes I just don't want to be around.

[Goldcrest]

I hate it too. So many times everything in my life has come crashing down. Fed up of trying to be well, to keep everything going. Will it always be like this...? I should just give up.

[Angelique67]

I hate it too. I think my life has just been one long, despairing waste.

[Salamtak]

, Not sure if all areas have this - - but in my town there is an organization called Thresholds that provides a lot of care and services for the mentally ill at little or no cost. A god friend of mine works there, and from what I have heard it is a great organization!

Originally Posted by ak482

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I know I need help, but therapy is either too expensive or doesn't fit in with my work schedule. Mental health isn't always covered under insurances, so it's eating a hole in my wallet.

Now my therapist thinks I have Asperger's High Functioning. Nice, but for a hopelessly single person a lot of people think: Asperger's=Ret****. Why can't I just be a happy non-mentally ill person? It's eating me financially and emotionally

[ForeverLonelyGirl]

Originally Posted by Salamtak

, Not sure if all areas have this - - but in my town there is an organization called Thresholds that provides a lot of care and services for the mentally ill at little or no cost. A god friend of mine works there, and from what I have heard it is a great organization!

I checked out Thresholds and as far as I can tell, it is only in Chicago. There is a dire need for mentally ill people to get services such as these. Sure wish there were more of them! Thanks for mentioning it anyway.

[bounceback]

Add me to the group of people who hate having a mental illness. I hate the fact that people stigmatize against you and I hate being on a list of medications. I hate having social anxiety also.