Its a trap?

Hello. Im frightened by the great number of issues that occupied my mind. There are so many of them that i think that i cant deal with them all by myself.
All the while:
- I can't afford therapy
- i cant lock myself in psych ward
- i don't want to get on pills.
There are no other options in the world that can possibly help people like me. It feels like being rat in the closed cage without freedom to move around. Its scary. Can anyone relate?

Hi Mefisto,
That is very scary as described. I'd say you feel helpless, stressed out and overwhelmed. There is some evidence that you are resourceful after all, you are here which shows me you have not given up and are looking for resources. Keep it up. Good on you!

Hello and good evening dear Mefisto. YES, I really CAN identify with you fears and worries, for I am almost obsessed in my way of thinking. I try to keep busy during the day, but the nights are another story. I don't live alone so walking around and fiddling with stuff at night is a def no no. I really really NEED my meds, to stablise my moods and stop the obsessive thoughts. It's no good anyone saying to you not to worry, but you worry anyways as our fears are serious to us. Hope you find other people who understand too hunny. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX