What is this feeling?

I was in the bathroom, and I can't really describe the feeling, but I suddenly felt distant. like I wasn't consciously in my body, or as if I was just realizing that I existed. It wasn't like I was floating above myself or anything like that. This has happened many time. I was looking at myself in the mirror, and I suddenly felt as if I didn't exist. It's really quite weird and it leaves me weirded out. I also have really bad focusing skills, listening to direction skills, social skills, I often get paranoid and anxious, as well as angry really easily, and have uncontrollable emotions at times. I get anxious in crowds and have really bad self esteem issues. At time i'll feel super super happy and feel really attractive, other times i'll feel depressed and paranoid as well as angry and like I'm the ugliest guy in the world. I just need help finding out if I'm normal or have some sort of mental disorder.

your not alone. we all have good days and bad days. puberty could also be a cause of it, i don't know how old you are but that is what i thought when i was feeling bad about myself. i remember the lights in one of our bathrooms in our house was not bright, i need bright lights to make me feel better about the way i look too.good luck

i get that exact feeling all the time. it's really weird and you described it exactly on point. when i go through it i feel like nobody would understand, but i'm glad to know there are people who experience it EXACTLY like i do. I think it is some sort of derealization?
I'm also with you there on the bad focusing skills, listening to direction skills, social skills, paranoia,anxiety, as well as getting anxious in crowds and the really bad self esteem thing. It's partially the reason i joined PC.
never thought of puberty as avlady suggested, but that could easily be a factor.
hope this helped at all?

Well I'm Glad that someone can relate me. Makes me feel a little better. That's the reason I joined PC as well. whenever I asked questions about my mental health or needed help with something, via Yahoo answers, there were just a$$holes on there who would troll me and make me feel like even worse crap.

yeah, yahoo answers is a really rude community... :/ i'm sorry, i hope this site is as helpful to you as it is for me.

Hey there. The feeling you are describing is called "depersonalization" in the psychological community. I know this because I searched high and low after this started happening to me in my mid-20s, when I began suffering severe panic attacks. It still happens very seldom and for shorter periods of time, ie: I am typing on my computer and all of a sudden I feel like I am standing next to myself observing myself from the outside, when I talk it is almost as if I am myself talking to myself. (I hope I was able to describe this accurately)
I take a moment, stop what I'm doing and self-talk (in my head) to remind myself what is happening will pass.
The only thing that did help this symptom, for me, was medication. If you are not on meds, I would suggest seeing a doctor and describing this symptom to them. I hope you are able to get the correct help and just know that you are NOT weird nor are you alone!

I agree yahoo answers is terribly rude, there's just a bunch of trolls on there who are probably teenagers. Yes Knash is right, what you experienced sounds a lot like depersonalization or detachment. It doesn't necessarily mean you have a mental illness, it can be brought on due to stress.

I've gotten that feeling a few times over the years. The most recent was about a year ago at work. The best way to describe it was like I was walking around in kind of a fog, wondering if everything that was happening was even real or if I was just dreaming.

to the original poster what you posted can be any number of physical or mental or normal problems...

examples of what this was/is in me...

multiple sclerosis
PTSD
Bipolar disorder
Anxiety
work stress
Anemia
eating disorder
sleep deprivation
dissociative problems
too much cafeine
too much sugar/ not enough sugar
too much salt/not enough salt

the list goes on of the many mental/physical and normal things these problems are in me

we can not tell you what this is with in you, to find out what the feelings are in you, contact your or a treatment provider (medical doctor, therapist, psychiatrist) they will be able to diagnose the problem in you.

I have had this happen to me as well. Thank goodness not in the past couple of years