Why does life have to be this way?

I have family. But I live in an abusive household. My sibling is abusive, bad attitude, says whatever she wants to with no regards to people's feelings at all.
My parents always think I'm a hypochondriac and shelter me entirely too much. I'm 17, with a 9pm curfew.
I dumped my boyfriend over a year ago and still have feelings for him. I dumped him because he got too close and I just shattered. I hate it so much. It kills me how unstable I am sometimes. Yet, how would I go about telling that to my parents?
I told them I had depression when I was 14 and trying to get the courage to kill myself because I was so depressed. I told them while I was 16. My sibling has anger issues, they're thinking about getting her counselling. Why can't I get counselling? How come people never want to help others until it starts messing/bothering them and their agendas.
She may be angry, but what about my life. I'm 17, sure, still a teenager, right? I don't have the mind of one and I feel my age should have nothing on my feelings.
I just feel like I can't take this anymore. I have a job, but I could never make enough money working there to support myself at all. My job is the good thing in my life, besides my friends, who I don't hang out after school. I just feel like I'm not even here, sometimes. I hate not being able to be touched. I told my parent how my teacher asked me about and my mom told me to stop acting like a rape victim.

I don't want to spiral downwards until I feel like I need to kill myself. I don't want to be that way ever again. It's hurting me so much to just sit here and take it while everyone around me is able to enjoy the intimate sharing of the flesh, sex or not. I'm just tired of feeling alone. Tired of having my feelings invalidated.

sorry to read about your struggles, it does sound rough.
what did your parents say when you asked them about seeing a therapist?
maybe if you're slightly closer with your mum (or dad) you could talk with them in private and have a heart to heart about things.

the positive thing though is that you have a job and are in school, sometimes you just have ride out the storm and things get better when you have a clear path to follow.

hopefully things get better if you can have a heart to heart with a family member, also maybe your doc can help? they can recommend for you to see a therapist.

You should talk to the school counselor. I bet they would meet with you and your parents.

I'd hear about it from my parents, how I should have came to them first. But, I have the worst time trying to get my feelings across. My mother and I had an argument about how I'm 17, why do I need to go to the movies with a guy. And my response was "I'm tired of being alone all of the time."

If you struggle getting your feelings across could you write everything down and then give it to mum/dad/both to read? I am useless at talking so I quite often write things out for people to read.it is much easier for me

We went to a park with a blanket and just talked, it was nice. I'm going to get a counsellor

I'm glad you managed to talk. Hope the counsellor helps!

Hugs to you my friend. Bravery comes with a cost. Pain brings growth. I am glad you are getting a counselor. Be kind to yourself, write a journal how you feel. Rereading mine I find helps me sort out why i was feeling the way i was. Take the time to discover what you want in life. All of us do not want to be alone. There are different levels of friendship, trust, and acceptance. These are things you will grow through. Life is a journey. I am in my 50's and going through a very hard situation. It is not easy to let go, but some things we need to let go to be able to have both hands to accept what is new to receive it. I find having a gratitude journal and writing three good things in it every day helps keep me focused. Your sibling, pity them for they suffer as much as you do. Anger destroys people. Find three good things about your sibling and then pray for them in their hurt and pain. Pray for your parents where they fail you, to be better parents. They suffer to with the weight of the world on their shoulders struggling to keep a family together. Parents are two people like you dealing with life also. Be kind to yourself, and find something lovely, positive to think on and go from there. And mostly, write something that you like about yourself. You are a good person, you just need some affirmation, love and kindness in your life. Let it happen for you. Blessings...