[lizardlady]

I do my best to be a positive person, really. I'm willing to be flexible. I don't believe in the word "can't". I tell people that "can't" is a four letter word.

Well, I can't do it any more. I'm worn down, worn out and sick. Been sick since before Thanksgiving. Three of the five cats are sick, all requiring multiple times a day medication. My friend that was coming to visit for the holidays called to cancel. I'm not a Christian, so the holiday is not a big deal to me because of that, but I was sure looking forward to seeing my friend. I'm telling myself to come up with another plan for the day. All I can see at this point is that I'm going to be home alone.

So, I'm crawling up on the pity pot for a day or two. I'm going to give myself permission to feel like crap for a couple of days. I'm crawling w-a-y to the back of my cave and hiding out for a couple of days.

I know myself. I'll pull out of this funk in a couple of days, but for now I'm giving myself permission to hide out.

[January]

((((( Liz )))))

You are so special to me. I hate to see you hurting like this. Take all the pity time you need and if I can help in any way, just let me know. I'll try my best to do it.

Many gentle hugs to you, my friend.

[unaluna]

We're here for you.

[Nammu]

Here (hands Liz a big furry blanket and a big mug of hot chicken soup with a bit of cayenne for snap)

You sound like you need some down time hon, to get some rest and step away from things. Poor kitties, I hope y'all get to feeling better.

Damn... it sounds like an avalanche of crap fell around you. Tread water until it gets better. Mixing metaphors since 1932 You know where to reach me

[splitimage]

I'm really sorry that you're having such a rough time. Treat yourself nicely while you hibernate.

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[avlady]

i feel for you, i got over an illness recently, it took awhile but it made me have to skip my cousins funeral. i hope and pray you feel better soon. have some chicken soup and crackers and treat yourself to some nice tea.

[winter4me]

Take some time for yourself...do comforting things...((((((((((hug))))))))))))

[BlueEyedMama]

I hope that you and your cats get to feeling better soon. *hugs*

[lizardlady]

Thanks everyone.

It's been two days and I'm still in a funk. Maybe it's going to take longer than I thought to pull out of this.

I think I'm going to put my tree up tomorrow night and watch "It's a Wonderful Life." Nobody but me and the cats to see the tree, but what the heck. I enjoy looking at it.

I got stuff to make myself a nice dinner on Christmas. Am thinking of taking BG for a walk in the woods Christmas Day. I know he'd enjoy it. I haven't wandered the woods at the back of my property in donkey's years. We could go exploring.

Back when family was still alive I used to ache for some down time at the holidays. It seemed like the entire month of December was non-stop with work and getting ready for the holidays, not to mention the "command performance" appearances at both families houses on Christmas Day. I used to wish I could just take off in the woods for the day and be by myself. Careful what you wish for, right? I've got the day to myself this year and it doesn't seem so grand.

[Nammu]

I mentioned elsewhere that I made a library run for season 6 and 7 of Mad Men and the first season of Game of Thrones, a few fluff mysteries. Some candy, cookies, eggnog and brandy. I got my present from my daughter waiting for Christmas eve so I'm set till January 2nd. I just want to avoid the whole crazy mad crush of humanity around this time of year.

[unaluna]

I can come visit you to cheer you up as soon as i get my apartment dehoarded enough for the city inspector, which at this rate will be around the twelfth of never!

[kennyc]

Originally Posted by lizardlady

I do my best to be a positive person, really. I'm willing to be flexible. I don't believe in the word "can't". I tell people that "can't" is a four letter word.

Well, I can't do it any more. I'm worn down, worn out and sick. Been sick since before Thanksgiving. Three of the five cats are sick, all requiring multiple times a day medication. My friend that was coming to visit for the holidays called to cancel. I'm not a Christian, so the holiday is not a big deal to me because of that, but I was sure looking forward to seeing my friend. I'm telling myself to come up with another plan for the day. All I can see at this point is that I'm going to be home alone.

So, I'm crawling up on the pity pot for a day or two. I'm going to give myself permission to feel like crap for a couple of days. I'm crawling w-a-y to the back of my cave and hiding out for a couple of days.

I know myself. I'll pull out of this funk in a couple of days, but for now I'm giving myself permission to hide out.

And you get to! Things will be better soon!

[Random]

I think your plan for christmas sounds lovely. A nice quiet evening putting up the tree, watching a classic movie, maybe some hot cocoa sitting in the dark with the tree lights glowing. And then the meal, getting to make exactly what you want and if something becomes a pain to do, you can just not make it and no one will be upset. Im assuming BG is a dog, going for a walk is a great idea too. Its so peaceful out in the woods, getting to think and the exercise will be good for your mood too if you do happen to be a little sad still. I'll be hoping you enjoy it, I know I'm jealous.

[lizardlady]

Y'all are probably going to laugh at me. I've finally settled on what I want to to today. I'm going to spend part of the day doing some major house cleaning. Between work and being sick the house is a friggin' disaster. It will be nice to have it cleaned up some. Tonight I will put up the tree and watch the movie. Tomorrow, while dinner cooks, BG (yes, he's a dog) and I will go for a walk in the woods at the back of the property.

Seems like I'm working on climbing off the pity pot.

[Evaluna]

I really admire the fact that you've allowed yourself to feel like this without fighting it. I really wish I could do this!

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I'm sorry you're feeling so badly, Liz. I can only imagine that you must need some time to recharge considering that you work full-time with the health problems that you have.

Your plans sound good, and I'm sure BG will be tickled pink at getting a walk in the woods for Christmas.

[lizardlady]

I'm finally off the pot.

Yesterday was a nice quiet day. Spent some time reading. Played games on the computer. Got some more cleaning done.

I'm not sure BG enjoyed the walk in the woods. It's gotten very overgrown with palmettos. He didn't like having to plow through them. I enjoyed it though.

I have another week before I have to go back to work. I'm looking forward to catching up on stuff around the house/farm and spending time doing a whole lot of nothing.

Thanks for all your support folks.

[spondiferous]

glad you took care of yourself, Liz. sometimes it's all we need. (and a little pity never hurt a thing...as someone once said to me, 'sometimes we need to pity ourselves, for if we don't, who will?')

[splitimage]

Glad you looked after yourself, and glad that you're feeling a bit better. I had a rough Christmas too, but made the best of it, and am looking forward to things getting back to normal next week.

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Lizard you are a credit to your species. Well done on taking care of your pets and also for taking care of yourself. Self-care is pretty important, and maybe this pity phase is a way for you to take care of yourself and recharge your batteries.

Good luck.