Are you sick of cyberspace???

I don't know how or where to meet people or potential love interests, and I have extreme anxiety issues. All the stress I suffered through over the years is a major factor in my low self-esteem. The mind is willing, but my body just goes berserk.

Yeah, that is adrenaline. And it gets worse if your diet is poor and your low mood won't be uplifted. Basically, an endless cycle of junk thoughts and depression will ensue. Using illegal drugs and alcohol just worsens the sadness.

The only person I ever considered a good friend was my late grandmother. Well, her and my mate, Frank. She passed away in 2004 because she was 85 and had cancer. The online world hasn't garnered me any success, so I often feel like the past 15 years was a waste, and I've been hurt and betrayed by so many people, that it stopped being funny long ago.

I also have this boring CPO to deal with and the court recently gave me a second one to run with it. Thank God the curfew thing is over at least. They had me staying indoors after 9 PM and the court stuff dragged on and on, just over a silly breach. Hell, if that's what trying to be a nice guy results in, you should never have anything to do with support workers. Or if you do, how can you act all cool so they don't think you're being inappropriate? At the end of the day, they just care about your drivel because they're all ears as long as there is a pay check involved. Certain ones are clueless and just pretend to know about autism. Well, you could test them and see the results for yourself.

You're really better off finding friends on the spectrum, or take up a new hobby. Meeting others that like the same sports or share a passionate intent for something are who you should hang in with. I'm not saying all care workers are bad, but you should not get attached to them, even if they are nice.

I'm sick of cyberspace, but given my isolation, I have no other option right now. Planning to have friends and relationships in real life is the right thing to do. It's healthier and more fulfilling. But you need to find the right people, which is the hardest part I think. I'm trying to get out (it's not working so far for me and I'm a little frustrated), but in the meantime I kill my loneliness and time on the Internet. I used to play video games, but it gets boring after a while.

I am going to try to do a fast from social media starting tomorrow, maybe for 90 days. It is always going to be difficult going off at first because I have let go of a lot of outside social contacts. That is what people don't realize. The more you stay on social media sites the more isolated you will become. Your social skills will shrivel up. You will have low frustration tolerance. Because in the real world you can't just expect an immediate response from large groups of people. That's not how the real world operates.

It is okay to dwell in silence and listen to one's heart.

Social media has made us afraid of solitude. Afraid of ourselves. Our own hearts and souls have become the enemy.

It is difficult when dealing with mental issues, of course, to be alone. At the same time, solitude gives time for certain issues to arise. Maybe one can keep a journal and write down things as they come up. One must become friendly towards the self, and curious about one's feelings.

One can learn patience in solitude. This is something one doesn't have to learn online. We lose patience because we can flit here and there until we find entertainment. We can go from forums, to searches, to Facebook, and YouTube etc. The Internet does not feed the restless soul; it irritates it.

That is true of all addictions. There is a certain amount of irritation because the body and spirit grows tired of repetition. It is reward seeking behavior. But the reward is like eating junk food when our body needs nourishment.

I think if one wants a relationship one should spend time figuring out what they want in the other person, then become that yourself. If I want someone who is confident and full of zest for life -- how am I going to attract someone like that if I lack confidence and am depressed?

It should be interesting to improve ourselves. If we need to be healthier, more fit, have relationships, or whatever. Goal setting, planning strategies, and then trying things out should be interesting; That is how life always was before technology.

Maybe once we become free of the clingy tentacles of technology then we can use it appropriately. I think there must be an appropriate way to use online dating sites that does not entail looking at thousands and thousands of photos. That is very tiring for the brain.

Community forums are fine but it will tire our brains if we read post after post of people with problems and try to solve all their problems.

Sometimes it is just fun to talk about fun things. I like to talk about diets and food with the young girls and others on this site. And some of them are philosophical souls and pose some interesting questions. I don't do chat or games, but for some weird reason I love to hear what people are eating!

The hardest part of a media fast for me will be giving up YouTube. I love YouTube and am wildly addicted to it. I follow several "coaches" -- in exercise, nutrition, psychological issues, and mental health. I might have to allow myself some short bit of YouTube time like maybe an hour on the weekend. I don't think I can go cold turkey from YouTube. I have been following some people on there for years.

I have tried to go off this site about a dozen times. It is as hard as giving up smoking. That makes sense. When you smoke it gives you a shot of dopamine. If you go on social media and someone has acknowledged your post it also gives you a shot of dopamine. It might help to realize that social media is chemically addictive and we use it and abuse it in the same way we use and abuse substances.

It would be great to have real friends and maybe a real relationship in real time. That takes effort. After all, finding that special someone is a quest. Or finding a few rare friends is a quest. It is a quest, an adventure, and a journey.

It should excite us, and it excites me. Anything worthwhile in life is worth the effort. Social media and other stuff on the Internet wants us to forget that. But we shouldn't.

Thank you, and Happy Easter and Passover, 2016.

The best Resident Evil fan community was reHorror. It was later upgraded to Rely on Horror, which also covers other survival horror games. The forums disappeared. Now you add posts using a Google account or other log-in names beneath the news articles.

In general, I find the online world boring yet useful. Wikipedia is good because it has discographies and chart listings for musicians I am interested in. Forums are still okay. It really always depends on the sort of members that inhabit them. Bad forums are a often a result of clowns being in charge and sometimes all it takes for the ball to roll is for a "newbie" to disagree with a comment and all the veterans gang up on that member, just to start a flame war. It can be a nasty place, the Internet.

Like I said, try Meetup. There is bound to be other websites like it were you sign up a profile and attend social events. Surely that beats wasting time talking to strangers on Facebook.

I saw this thread on Google. I was looking for a shortcut to a similar thread I posted just a few weeks ago where I too was speaking of my disappointment with how the Internet has ended up. Since I was the last poster, I didn't want to bump it back to the top of the topics again.

I just rejoined Facebook and Twitter. Yeah, I know Facebook is a great big pile of poo, but it's also one of the better networking websites where you don't pay a penny to subscribe to something that yields zero guarantees. I'm keeping tabs on a film production group as I could have been an extra in some videos earlier this year, so I may try to do this if more chances become available, and provided I can find decent support workers to help me fulfill my dream. I'm unable to go to things like this by myself because I get nervous.

I'm trying to set up new support; I also spoke about my frustration in that sector as well quite a number of times in prior threads. The social services are who deals with starting up the support, yet they know about my previous court problems, and probably imply I'm some sort of beast around women, because I got charged before, and well, I don't wish to delve into the ins and outs of that story again. I've called numerous places before, and although they listen to my woes, they like to act fishy. Knowing them, they like to hear another take on the matter from a third party, and since social workers are often sneaky jerks, none of these people got back in touch because the social worker I had assigned to me had probably told them I'm this and I'm that, even though I cannot prove it happened.

I bought a new iPhone, and I had a problem where it froze. But after I found out it was the SIM-card, I picked up an EE one instead. Well, I joined some websites and the validation links were sent to my new Gmail account, but when I tried to sign into Gmail, it requested that a verification code be added, because that often occurs if you log into multiple accounts too quickly. I'll sort that out later on.

Yes, I have grown tired of and become disappointed in the internet. Specifically, I have gotten sad and infuriated with some of my connections - for that is mostly all I use it for, to maintain aquaintanceships.
I have always been careful that the online friendships I make and accept are only with those persons I know personally off line. I don't even accept friendship requests from friends of friends.

I have become hugely disappointed in friends of late. In the last year my country has seen several provincial and a federal election. Even the election south of the border is affecting us.

These elections have brought out very negative politics which have caused me to be shocked by people I thought I knew so well. It hurts and bothers me to no end that some of those close to me are so close minded, racist, homophobic, anti refugee, Islamaphobes. And the vindictiveness they have/are displaying. Some are even preaching violence as a method to reach their desired ends. It truely frightens me.

I have become sick of it. In response I have whittled down my friend circle. Oh there are those I still disagree with and can have an intelligent argument with but it is those that are trying to spread hate and fear that I've chosen to delete.

The news too is full of this. There also I have begun to view less and less.

I am turning more to actual letter writing to communicate long distance. At any rate, my time on the internet has significantly dropped.