[Mr.Arch-Vile]

There's no need to reply to this, I just want to vent.

I normally don't feel the need to post anything, but after I got home from a short 15 minute appointment I feel like I'm getting bitter and twisted.

The situation is like this, picture if you will I am a trucker awaiting medical clearance from the DOT. In order to get clearance I need a letter from my psychiatrist.

The letter is to consist of a current narrative and summary of my condition, it is to include the history of the relapse of schizoaffective-biploar disorder, hospitalization history, manic or severe depressive episodes, presence of thought disorders, all medications used to date, impairing side effects, therapeutic efficacy, medication compliance, stability on current dose and prognosis for performing trucking duties.

So in my case today, the letter is finally written, but it is done all in one sentence. Basically stating that I have schizoaffective biploar type and that I am on abilify.

After seeing that letter, I became quietly frustrated, I felt as if everything that was asked for was ignored. I didn't feel to mention anything to the doctor because to my knowledge this is probably all that is needed but I don't know until it actually goes through.

Now why this is making me all bitter and twisted is that I feel that I am completely fine and normal due to the medication. I have zero intrusive thoughts and psychotic thoughts. The only reason why anything ever happened in the first place was because I felt I had no true purpose because I had no job earning money, hence the psychotic break from reality believing in a special mission.

But now after everything has happened to me, I feel more like I have committed a felony and cannot acquire jobs that I trained for because the heavy label of schizoaffective-biploar. I informed by the doctor though the label will change as time goes on, so I think.

Every online form I have completed while applying for a job has this form about disability and sure enough my diagnosis is enough to be considered disabled. I always fill as "not willing to answer" because truthfully, I do not have active symptoms, nor do I feel myself as disabled. I find this is highly frustrating because after spending 7 years in college to earn a degree I feel it is implied by society the only job I could get is a minimum wage janitorial job. I still have my hopes about me though.

I feel like my life has been majorly screwed up (for the time being), I not being dramatic about it because I'm looking at the dim side of it all right now. I understand things can change and can be proven otherwise. It's just that sometimes I get this heavy feeling that I am getting passive aggressively bullied into feeling like an outcast, a leper.

Cannot your doctor say "... but is able in doing so and so, .." in his/her letter, especially you said your situation was conditional? Try to explain to him/her your situation and concern.

I had to give up my commercial driver's license. All because I truthfully answered 'yes' to the question: have you ever suffered from Depression or Anxiety. I just had to go and be honest,

[winter4me]

rcat, know what you mean.
I once, long ago, answered a question honestly, on a job application for a job that I was already wanted for---the person handling the app. came running out of her office yelling my name and said "Redo this. The answer to this question is "NO"" When I began to say I was just being honest she said "It doesn't matter. It is none of their business."
I have kept that attitude most of my working life and it was worth it---
I decided I did not need to disclose anything that could be used against me, or that did not in that time affect my ability to perform my job well---- ...it has caused periodic misunderstandings of my behaviors but I can live with that.
It has also resulted, at times, in gasps of astonishment, and relief when I have chosen to share certain things with particular people (those who I think are having difficulty and think they are alone...)

[Mr.Arch-Vile]

Well as an update I got the certificate, but I think because of how vague the letter was they give me a shorter expiration date.

I am Happy though.

[bathroomscrubber]

Originally Posted by Mr.Arch-Vile

Well as an update I got the certificate, but I think because of how vague the letter was they give me a shorter expiration date.

I am Happy though.

Congratulations. I would still talk to your Dr. Ask for an explanation. Have you in the past or are you collecting disability for your diagnoses? If not, you are not required by law to say you have them. It's not certified.