[1976kitchenfloor]

Hello, everyone. You have all been so great about answering my questions and sharing you own expereinces and insights.

I think I told everyone in my intor that I ahd been misdiagnosed as a young girl and that as a result I spent years taking strong antipsychotic medications as well spending a few years altogether in a state institution or other psych ward.

I have recently retired and moved back to the town where my parents lived. Memories and expereinces from this town are pretty awful, but I am really doing well , especailly since my husband likes living here.

However, it was here in this town that I was seen by a local doctor who referred me to the psychiatrist out of town who misdiagnosed me. I was a zombie for a long time, unable to fully function or even defend myself. It was really screwed up and even though that was many many eyars ago I think that a lot of people still remember and think of me as being that screwed up out to luhcn girl.

My concern is that since DID is controversial and a lot of medical people neither understand it or accept it as being a legitimate mental illness I worry that somehow my old medical history will be pulled out and docs here will think I am schizophrenic. Drugs prescribed and given to me by many a psychiatrist over the years practically killed me and frankly made it impossible for me to work through feelings or problems. I lsot a lot of time, years, and memories and getting myself back together was not due to drugs but intensive therapy and work on self and life.

Having worked in a major hospital I am aware of how liberally even general physicians prescribe antispychotoc drugs for everything from geriatric delierium to childrens anxiety and inabilty to sleep. People act and talk as if these drugs are harmless and hve no potential dangers associated with them.

I am so afraid that if something happens so I have to go to a hospital and see a doctor or worse yet have a family practitioner assigned to me and I will be hurt again by their ignorance. So far only acute illness or accidents have sent me to the clinic but I know the staff wants me to get a regular assigned physician.

I have met too many docs who I couldnt talk to or trust. Now that I am older I fear getting some doc who thinks he knows everything about psyche , loves handing out psychotropics, looks at me and sees a senile old woman, and really doesnt have a clue about me adn where I come from and what I have been through.

How can I protect and defend myself against physicians and their love of medication? I am allergic to sulfa and can ahve that put on my medical history, but I cant put down that giving me antipsychotic drugs takes away my mind and I cant afford to expereince all that again.

Any ideas? Any thoughts? Anyone else out there afraid of psychaitry , psychiatrists and other medical personnel who just cant prescribe enough of these drugs for any and all reasons /to any and all people?
Does anyone else feel threated and insecure regarding health care and health care providers?

[1976kitchenfloor]

Is there a doctor in the house? Or a psychiatirc nurse that might have some professional advice as to how to handle this?

[sabby]

Hi 1976kitchenfloor,

Unfortunately, since this site is a peer to peer support site, we don't offer professional help. Even if we have professionals as members, they are here as peers and cannot/don't act in a professional manner.

I'm sorry that you are having to deal with the fear of doctors and not being able to trust them. The best thing I can suggest is to find a doctor who seems compassionate and willing to listen (I know, few and far between it seems). They are out there, it just takes time to find them. Word of mouth is sometimes a good way to find someone. Also, you can interview them as well as they work for you in their capacity.

Maybe having a list of things you are looking for in a doctor and going over that list with one would be helpful to you? Just a thought.

I wish I could be more helpful to you. I wish you well!

[1976kitchenfloor]

Thank you.

[handheart]

You have a burried fear deep inside in you .You must repeat to yourself that doctors are good persons and they dont make you bad thinks .Any doctors want to help his pacients

[nicoleflynn]

You have a lot of knowledge......just use it to protect yourself....you can always refuse anything that makes you uncomfortable.

[1976kitchenfloor]

Originally Posted by 1976kitchenfloor

Hello, everyone. You have all been so great about answering my questions and sharing you own expereinces and insights.

I think I told everyone in my intor that I ahd been misdiagnosed as a young girl and that as a result I spent years taking strong antipsychotic medications as well spending a few years altogether in a state institution or other psych ward.

I have recently retired and moved back to the town where my parents lived. Memories and expereinces from this town are pretty awful, but I am really doing well , especailly since my husband likes living here.

However, it was here in this town that I was seen by a local doctor who referred me to the psychiatrist out of town who misdiagnosed me. I was a zombie for a long time, unable to fully function or even defend myself. It was really screwed up and even though that was many many eyars ago I think that a lot of people still remember and think of me as being that screwed up out to luhcn girl.

My concern is that since DID is controversial and a lot of medical people neither understand it or accept it as being a legitimate mental illness I worry that somehow my old medical history will be pulled out and docs here will think I am schizophrenic. Drugs prescribed and given to me by many a psychiatrist over the years practically killed me and frankly made it impossible for me to work through feelings or problems. I lsot a lot of time, years, and memories and getting myself back together was not due to drugs but intensive therapy and work on self and life.

Having worked in a major hospital I am aware of how liberally even general physicians prescribe antispychotoc drugs for everything from geriatric delierium to childrens anxiety and inabilty to sleep. People act and talk as if these drugs are harmless and hve no potential dangers associated with them.

I am so afraid that if something happens so I have to go to a hospital and see a doctor or worse yet have a family practitioner assigned to me and I will be hurt again by their ignorance. So far only acute illness or accidents have sent me to the clinic but I know the staff wants me to get a regular assigned physician.

I have met too many docs who I couldnt talk to or trust. Now that I am older I fear getting some doc who thinks he knows everything about psyche , loves handing out psychotropics, looks at me and sees a senile old woman, and really doesnt have a clue about me adn where I come from and what I have been through.

How can I protect and defend myself against physicians and their love of medication? I am allergic to sulfa and can ahve that put on my medical history, but I cant put down that giving me antipsychotic drugs takes away my mind and I cant afford to expereince all that again.

Any ideas? Any thoughts? Anyone else out there afraid of psychaitry , psychiatrists and other medical personnel who just cant prescribe enough of these drugs for any and all reasons /to any and all people?
Does anyone else feel threated and insecure regarding health care and health care providers?

hello.
I want to clarify something: when I was diagnosed schizophenic I was depressed and anxious, very miserable living in my parents house. I had none of the symptoms of schizophrenia. Perhaps that is what is at the heart of my anxiety and fear of docs. How could this happen when there was no indication of this illness?

I did not have disordered thinking or hallucinations or lack of interest and self care. I was an excellent student but was miserablly unhappy and hated what was going on/how we all lived in my parent's house. I was sexually abused for years and nothing was done about that. I dont know if my mother who knew about the abuse ever even told my physician who referred me to the psychiatrist who diagnosed me schizophrenic.

One more thing; the psychiatrist also sexually abused me. I never even came to terms with this until I was in my sixites. On a visit to my hometown my elderly father casually made a statement about this psychiatrist losing his medical license because he was sexually abusing his female patients.

I couldnt beleive my ears. I had completley blocked out what this doc had also done to me. My reaction to hearing this triggered a dissociative reactions. In time, I was able to confront this and tell my therapist about this. This was an essential part of what became my acceptance and integration of who all I had been and what I had been through from the time I was a little kid.

It has taken me almost all my life before I have been able to put myself and my life together. It was really painful and took so much time (because, I bleive, the misdiagnosis and drugs really complicated things) but I am here. I consider my fear of physicians and being given drugs to be completely reality driven, based upon both my own personal expereinces and what I know of trends in psychiatry and the rampant over prescription of antipsychotics by both psychiatrists and general medical practitioners--who, frankly, are not themselves trained to diagnose and treat mental illnesses.

[Fuzzybear]