[urge38]

soon to be 50 years old,
I have genuinly never written a story in my whole life.
yet for some strange reason, I felt complelled today to do so.

I would like to tell you a story, but the sad turf is no one would care to read it, That is !!!
I am not the kind of person you want to be or aspire to,
If i was famous, good looking or had lots of money, anything that some one wants from life, people might be reading this,
we as humans mostly give our time if we are getting something out of it, or in the hope of getting what we want.
a younge man might not bother talking to a girl he finds unatractive, but I have seen many a man bend over backwards for a prity girl.
this is the sad truth about us humans, NOT so hu-main are we !!!!!!!

I have never really had any of the things people look for in others, God was not kind to me in that way, this is mostly why I find my self all alone and unhappy.
In a way, a peacefull part of me finds this not so hard to live with, as the same part of me would rather be alone than surranded by fakes, people who would want to use me if I was not me.
In a protective way, I may well be in a safe place here all alone,

[Dont_Follow]

I have gotten very used to being alone. At the very least, you are truly free when you are alone.

As for sharing your story, I think you should. Nobody wants to hear about the rich and famous, we are all pelted by their unimportant lives every day through media. I think the stories of ordinary people are much richer, because those ordinary people who listen discover that others experience similar battles in life.

[1976kitchenfloor]

Hello. I agree with the previous answer by Don't _Follow.

Also, I notice you are feeling kind of down on yourself and this is reflected in your negative outlook on life. Depression and loneliness can do that. Being isolated and without someone to share with can do that.

I think that when we are depressed like this we look out at the world around us and see only the bad stuff and the creepy selfish people who are only out for themselves, and then we say to ourselves, 'see, I am right, everyone is like this and there is no hope because everyone is a really a shallow bastard out for himself. '

Write your story and tell us what you see and how you feel. Tell us about your experinces and reflections on life and people. Dont let the idea that only rich or pretty people matter or are interesting blind you and keep you from writing your story. nothing could be further from the truth! Every man has a story inside him and this is his unique and special story to write. That story is yours and only yours to tell and that story can be a way to connect with other people.

Take care now. Get out your pen and notebook. Begin.

[urge38]

A genuine thanks for your replys.

I would tell you about my self and my life, but I it wont change it none, my past is my past.
most of the negative stuff in my past had very little to do with my doing,

no more than a child being born with aids.

This is not me being sad, or down, its simply me excepting the truth.

I am quite contempt with my self, as said, you can have peace when alone.

It would take a decade to write the major events and trumers in my life, and there are far more people out here coping far worse than me so I will spare you the time to read my story (full version)

I have a lovely cat, her name is sally, she puts a little sun back in my life and I am gratful for her.

I would rather tell you of sally than of my hardship if you will allow

[1976kitchenfloor]

Please do...dear person, write of the cat that puts a little sun back in your life.

[urge38]

Well my sally (cat) was named after harry and sally,
I got the two as kittens from a litter of about 7.

my now ex wife didnt want our sally as she was very small and had a wepping eye.

never the less, the ex choose harry and I picked our sally.

you could (can) see the most beautifal soul when you looked into her eyes.

I have had plenty of cats in my time, every cat is special in one way or an other,

I am not smitten just because she is mine, but our sally is special !!!!

her brother harry, got run over poor thing, he was always destined for trouble just like my ex funny enough!!!!!!!!

so thats about it, sally is alive and well, she still has a runny left eye and a beautifal soul and a dad who loves here very much, she is about seven years old and brings light into my life just looking at her.

thats it
thanks for listening

Originally Posted by urge38

Well my sally (cat) was named after harry and sally,
I got the two as kittens from a litter of about 7.

my now ex wife didnt want our sally as she was very small and had a wepping eye.

never the less, the ex choose harry and I picked our sally.

you could (can) see the most beautifal soul when you looked into her eyes.

I have had plenty of cats in my time, every cat is special in one way or an other,

I am not smitten just because she is mine, but our sally is special !!!!

her brother harry, got run over poor thing, he was always destined for trouble just like my ex funny enough!!!!!!!!

so thats about it, sally is alive and well, she still has a runny left eye and a beautifal soul and a dad who loves here very much, she is about seven years old and brings light into my life just looking at her.

thats it
thanks for listening

You're not old, and not terribly alone!

Long story, but I had to give my cat, Henry, away.

I've been in a dreadful panic for over 7 hours. I don't leave my home.

It's two hours short of being one full week since I found my friend dead. I didn't realise, until paying my AT&T bill yesterday how very much I've been missing him. As each day passes, I realise how I depended on him being ready to answer my call, whenever I called. I didn't realise that I appreciated his calls to make certain that I was okay.

Just like the old and weary saying, you don't appreciate your friends until they're gone. Someone here wrote "I never expected to be left with no one." I've realised a greater impact of those words as these days have passed. I don't understand how those words, that feeling, could have any more impact. He and I both assumed that it would be he finding me.

I wish that I could have a cat again. I wouldn't be physically able to take care of a cat.

Do you know Sloane Gardens, turn to the left exiting Sloane Square tube station? I had a flat there. Mainly an investment but I lived there for over a year, too. I can't imagine being back in London with no legs.

Writing makes me feel better much of the time. I think that you should continue.

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When I'm in London, I'm often at the Chelsea and Westminster nearby. I love seeing the Chelsea pensioners. It's a beautiful part of the city. I love the history.