[InACorner]

It is 3:30 am. There are emotional stages of a long night with no sleep...i have decided this...and even it is already discovered...i am at the point where i do not care...i discovered it...so smile and say...shes brilliant..lol

Emotion 1....Denial....Ill get to sleep..no worries...wheres the hot milk? Oh good..i got an extra pillow for extra comfort....not a problem...any minute now...im sure i feel the sleep coming (this is probably around 10 pm)

Emotion 2....Frusteration....Ok ...this is kinda crappy...not a problem ...ill fix this pillow....sigh....i really should get to sleep...i only have 8 hours left before i have to wake up...hmm..i wonder what im going to wear...(this is probably around 10:30 pm)

Emotion 3 ....Calm.....mm...i like the look of my ceiling at night...not bad...im glad the window is open.....i mean i can hear the nice sounds of the highway....kinda calming to be honest....maybe we should repaint these walls .... (around 11:00 pm)

Emotion 3....Weird Creativity, thats not creative....The lonesome cry of the wolf...he digs by the tree....I hear thee oh Wolf of thy mountain....I see your body in the moon....(this is probably around 12 am)

Emotion 4...Nature calls....I need to pee...i never need to wake up and pee when i go to sleep....what is this about...where did this pee come from? I do not know if i am comfortable with this pee that comes from no where...i wonder when i drank something last? (around 12:30 am)

Emotion 5...clean freak....I cant believe i have all this stuff on my dresser...what the heck..am i some hoarder...do i have problems? Hmm...i should fix some things....like clean up this dresser for one..i guess i could get started on some laundry...i wonder what time it is....(around 1 am)

Emotion 6...Hungry Jack....Im hungry...i wonder what we have to eat...i could go for some pizza...let me go check...
(around 1:30 am)

Emotion 7....Curious....I wonder what i look like tired....hmm lets go check...wow...tonight im not looking to bad...why cant i look like this in the daylight? I mean my hair has this...bounce....i mean forget the bags under the eyes...my hair...wow....now..how come i cant get that shine during the day....oh crap...i have to pee again.... ( 2 am)

Emotion 8...You just dont get it...Why? Why am i not sleeping? I wonder...is my SO sleeping? Hmm dang it yes they are...hmm what do i do now...is everyone sleeping? I guess not in china....hmm...should i call china? I dont speak Chinese...Why me? Why cant my SO not be the one to not sleep? I mean...the people on tv can only do so much....maybe i should wake up my SO...nah...id hear a cuss word or two..but it would be a word....hmm nah ..im not that mean.....this is getting ridiculious (2:30 am)

Emotion 9....acceptance...Ok...i can deal..no sleep...not a problem....ill just wait till dawn...not a problem...ill get online ..ramble a bit...and see what happens....maybe i can take a nap during the day...do they allow that....i dont know....ahh its ok...maybe tommrow night will be different....i like this infomericals anyway....something about CLR....a weight loss massage on your belly thing....and some guy yelling about a veggie thing...i didnt do anything to him...why does he need to yell...oh well...he probably thinks my hearing is gone with my sleeping..hes probably right.... (3 am)

Im at emotion 9 right now....i cant tell anymore than that...cuz i havent reached farther than this...hmm ill let you guys know....but as soon as i press this continue button ill see how much i actually wrote..probably be appalled..mind you the apalled word is only used at 3 am....appalled...lol as with speeling....its no longer a decent thing..gone is the speeling...lol...and please...dont put this in social...i mean i rarely write in general...mainly because im not sure what to write in general...and what to write in social...i get confused with this...ooo wait now i know

Emotion 10 ...confusion and mass rambling...self explainable from the above paragraph...

Good night ....or something...

love,
inny

[Soidhonia]

(((INA))). I hope things get better with you this evening and you can get some sleep. Take care of yourself (((INA))). Soidhonia

i'm sorry you're having trouble sleeping. it SUCKS........xoxoxo

[pegasus]

Yeah, Iv'e been there too, especially with the pee thing, why do we need to pee so much at night?

Hope you did get some sleep.

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i hear you inny. sorry you cannot sleep. hey, i think i posted you around this time because you crossed my mind. i can relate. i do hope hun that you got some sleep. you are a wonderful person inny. thank you for sharing. sending you good thoughts and gentle hugs.

purplesecrets

[(JD)]

I think you described your levels quite well. Yes, insomnia has it's issues doesn't it? I finally get to the stage of acceptance, and lie in the dark keeping thoughts at bay: at least the body can rest and that's a good thing.

Hope you are having a good day in spite of little sleep. (((hugs)))

[Direction]

Well described...I had a little chuckle as I've been there...sorry that you didn't get any sleep...hope tonight is better...

[Fuzzybear]

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[jacq10]

woooooow I can completely relate to what you described above! Insomnia is the worst - sorry you are having to deal with it too! Try reading, it tires your eyes.

[eskielover]

My insomnia takes on a little different picture.......I need to get some things done before I go to sleep.....if I were really tired, I could just sit down & go to sleep, so it's ok to do some things until I get that tired.

Wow, I have stripped the wallpaper off one whole wall......or I got 3 cabinets cleaned & the lining paper put in.....or......1000 other projects.

Oh MY!!!!!!!! why is it so light in here......oh, the sun is coming up.....where did that come from.....it was just 1am a few minutes ago????????

I'm still not that tired.....think I will still keep going & see how much more I can get done.

Around 4PM later that day. I sit down to take a breather & 6 hours later, my doggie is licking my face telling me "MOM, you forgot my potty walk!!!!!!!!"

Then comes the I'm awake at this time of morning & I just slept 7 hours & now I have energy again......what a way to mess up a body clock!!!!!!

I can however relate with you, but when I can't sleep I usually start to do things on my list rather than just lay there counting the holes in my ceiling.

Actually, my sleep has become so much better now that I am here in Kentucky. In California, my nightmares were so bad I was afraid to sleep & had to take a high dose of seroquel to be able to sleep without nightmares.....which would absolutely knock me out & then I couldn't wake up easily.

I think I like this way of not sleeping much better than the other,
Debbie

[Busysdizzy]

And...add sleeping problems to working part time 11 Pm to 7 AM and life is one big quest for a good span of uninterupted sleep!

[gostryter]

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you made me laugh!!!!! i needed that!!!! thanks for sharing!!