PC! Please I need you now more then ever!

My problems are getting so severe lately! I've always been such an openly loving person, giving, and giving, in my own way as much love as I can telling ppl I love them and I do! And most of all giving them compliments they deserve!

Well lately I feel so so alone, crying almost for no reason, I've gotten alot in my mind about bad things happening I force my self into the terror I most hate! God I'm not making sense..I don't know how to explain it.......I feel as if I rush for someone to get them something, tell them something, give them something, but I never am rushed for.

I Have no one in real life to lean on! My therapist is awaay. And my other therapist e-mailed me wanting me to come back since he is back......who do I trust.....I TRUST TO EASILY! I give so much out..in so little time hoping praying for a friend.. a parnet, a companion, and im so young, these bee stings hurt so BAD!

I'm allergic to the world....I'm slowly fading in a mirrior and sinking in a ocean full of tears all mine! When will I find a "thing" to hold onto, a person to grasp for another breath, why are my tears bleeding for happiness.......I don't know what happiness is........I'm so terrible...I'm so wrong...I dont understand humanity...but we none do...i guess I just can't even "tolerate" it......I can't move in the crowds..nor whisper with the yelling...I'm so distant.......so afraid.....im so cold in sweat.....yet hot as hell as the devil wishes to burn me into another soldier...I'm so scared.....God help me......................................save me...............im sinking....................PLEASE!

[(JD)]

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I've gotten alot in my mind about bad things happening

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I'm sorry you are going through this. You need to try and do some "thought stopping" as soon as you realize you are beginning to think about something that makes you feel bad, tell yourself Stop! No, I won't think about that right now. And try to force yourself to think about something good... like when your T will be back?

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My therapist is awaay

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This is always an anxious time for most patients. You aren't alone in that. This is why they have a doctor on call. You won't have to go into lots of details with the interim doctor, just knowing someone cares and will talk with you is often enough to get you through the time your own doctor is away. They have good ideas on how to make this time easier for you, why not go ahead and call?

[sassypants]

Sorry you are going through so much pain. I also hope
this cycle of sinking goes away. I have been in so much pain,right now i'm in limbo. JUst Gloomy. I don't want to venture out, and I also have no friends to reach out for,
except for those in PC.

Please know that you are loved by eveyone here.
Take care of yourself..

TY Sassy/Sky...I'll do my best.....