disrespected and angry and need to vent

i am so angry and hurt right now...... we just hired a new employee at my company........ i did all the training of this new person (even though i've only been working there a few months) and she still makes a zillion mistakes and i have to check all her work (my boss told me to), plus she spends half her day screwing around...... well i heard her on the phone today with her friend and she said how much she makes..... it's more than i make! and i have more experience than she does, and all my coworkers tell me all the time that i'm invaluable and that i'm the best person who's ever held my position. my boss told me the same thing just last week, and he gave me a raise, but i'm still making less than her. i also have tons more experience, why is he paying her more than me?? i'm busting my *** and working so hard and then i get disrespecte like this? all it does is reinforce that i'm freaking worthless. i cant quit, i need the job, but i'm so upset about this. maybe i'm making a big deal out of nothig but i dont think its fair, i work really hard and i do a good job. what is it about me? i swear its in my genes somewhere.

sorry to rant so much but this really really bothers me......i've been doing pretty good lately but now i feel awful and worthless again, i hate feeling like this but i can't help it.

i would be really upset if i were in your shoes. i can imagine how you must be feeling after that news!!!!

can you talk to your boss? if you can, do......this is nuts.......good luck, pat

((((((((( bellaviolet )))))))

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I agree that if you have a good relationship with your boss I would try talking to him. However, have you thought that the woman might have been lying to her friend about how much she makes? It sounded as if she was bragging and if she's that incompetent, she might easily lie about it to hide her inadequacies.

Hugs,

Jan

thank you pat....... i dont feel like i can talk to my boss right now, he just gave me that review & raise, plus i would feel like the ultimate tattler if i told him i overheard her....... i don't have a problem with her as a person, actually i like her, i just don't think she's right for the job and i think its wrong for him to pay her more. i'm assuming she doesnt know she makes more than me. and i actually like my job, and my coworkers. this just feels like a slap in the face and i'm tired of feeling worthless and no good, and people telling me no, you are valuable, then this crap happens and that all goes away, i;m just subpar again. i just cant see any way out of it right now except to quit, and i cant do that, i need the money. i don't know what i can do at this point. probably nothing, i'm just screwed like always. i hate this crap. i wish i had never found out she was making more because it wouldnt matter.

thank you jan........ ((((jan)))) ..... no i dont feel like i can talk to my boss now...... like i said to pat he just gave me that raise....... and even though he did that and said how happy he was with me he still points out any little mistake and talks to me (and all his employees for that matter) like i'm stupid. he's a hard guy to work for, the longest anyone has worked for him is about 2 years and she has told me alot of stories about how hard he is to work for.

the new employee..... she mentiond the other day that she asked for more than what he originallly offered.... so i'm thinking probably she is making what she said based on what he was offering for the position....

mostly i just hate feeling like this. i thought i was getting better but i feel like crap now.

((((((((((((bellaviolet)))))))))))))))))

i so completely feel your pain!!!! i have been there!!!!!! and suffered through the anger and humiliation and disrespect and anger....there's not a lot you can do unfortunately...except indicate to your boss that you are interested in a promotion if it becomes available....you want to move up the ladder....

but be very careful what you wish for...i did that and it landed me a bucket full of boiling water when i got the promotion!! and now i'm losing my job as i type this!!!! ugh...jobs and bosses SUCK!!!!

i think for some people they just sail through life....and then there are those of us who get crapped on....all the time!!!!

just try not to think about it!! pretend you never heard her talking.... besides if your boss is that difficult to work for what are the chances she'll be around long.... i dunno it sux

did she tell you she is making more? if so I would go to the boss and say hey look this isn't right!

(((bellaviolet)))

I actually have been in the same boat, myself. While it does suck not to have as much money as this person, remember it does not validate how valuable you really are. You are beyond a paycheck. Do not get me wrong, either, a bigger paycheck, well, it is nice--but I also realize that you are really worth more then that piece of paper. Validation of what you earn and validation of who you are are two completely different things. Believe in who you are--you did mention you got a raise with your review...and believe me, I know it is hard, because truthfully, like I said, I have been there myself, but think of the raise from the review as validation of your work as being vital to the company. You have been there a lot longer than she has, you work harder, you must work better or else you would not of trained her or still have been there...Validate yourself, believe in yourself--perhaps after awhile ask for more money, but not right away, due to just having the review, but realize how vital you are to the organization.

Best of luck with this...

((((((((((((gostryter)))))))))))))

thank you.......... i'm sorry about your job and i wish you didn't know how i feel because it's no fun at all........ hope things get better for you SOON.....

thanks bebop........ no she didnt tell me, i just overheard her on the phone...... so i wouldn't feel comfortable talking to my boss about it....... but thank you........

(((((((bebop)))))))

(((((clydemed)))))

thank you...... i know my coworkers value me, they tell me all the time what a great job i do which is nice to hear.......just feels a little like hypocrisy from my boss, telling me how great i am, then i find that out. i do appreciate that he at least gave me some kind of raise, my feelings are just hurt, and i was doing better with the depression and then this happens and makes me feel crappy again......but i'm trying not to be so down about it.....you're right, at least they do value my work.....