for Doc John

I don't know any other way to get in touch with you, so I'm posting here. Yesterday when I was in the chat room with one other person, that person told me they went and overdosed a few minutes ago. At the time I felt very helpless. I think I was able to convince the person to get help (they said they would and did sign off - I think to call for help), but this was very stressful for me. I am left feeling angry at the person for putting me in that position and afraid it's going to happen again and I won't be able to help. Is there anything I can do if that happens again? I feel like I need to protect myself, but I'm not sure how. Any suggestions?

Kim - I'm SO sorry that happened to you! I've been in a similar position and it's just awful. Very frightening and upsetting...and yes, it sure can lead to anger since you are so helpless to do anything. Take care!

Emmy

"Language is a Trojan horse by which the universe gets into the mind. ." -- Hugh Kenner

Hi Kim. I am so sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was in such a state of mind, I didn't even think how my actions might have affected you. I need to apologize, and I hope you can accept it. I had no intentions of making you feel angry, and I apologize profusely. Anything I did or said in the chatroom , I had no right to drag you into it. It wasn't fair, and I promise I won't do anything like that again. A lot of actions and emotions at this stage in my life are triggering, I know, and I didn't think how they can effect others here. Please, I'm so sorry. Next time, I WILL think ahead and keep personal business just that. PERSONAL. Again, I'm sorry.

Geez, between you and how my earlier staement affected Jon, I think I'm just going to stay out of the chatrooms from now on! But please, with my deepest sincerety, I am sorry.

lost_lonely, I can't speak for her, but I think the reason Kim felt angry is because of how helpless somehow can feel when a total stranger online, at an unknown location and contact, tells you that s/he overdosed. It's human nature to have concern for the safety of others. If I had been in the chat room and someone said that to me, I would be angry also--angry with the fear of that person's health and safety and the fact that I would be at a loss to help more than I could. To your honor, you did a good thing in telling someone that you overdosed. That is calling for help, but it's like picking up the phone with ID blocking and dialing 9-1-1 and not giving them your address. That's maybe not the best example I can give, but you should get the idea. Please do consider going into chat sometimes--it really is a lot of fun!

Thanks inkblot, but I think I've done enough damage here

It's not irrrepairable damage--try again. You can only please some every time, and you can please everyone only some of the time.

Just maybe... you're an even better than average chatroom member now because you've experienced a personal pitfall and have improved yourself because of it?

I know it is hard to put a positive spin on things when you are depressed but that really is the truth.

What happened is something that happened before and is sure to happen again... but it's very unlikely that you will do it again so you are probably "safer" than most.

Anyway I am really sorry you were having such a bad time, that prompted this in the first place. I hope things improve for you. Since this may be on your mind if things get bad again, maybe turn that into a positive as well, and if you feel that bad but know it would be bad to go to the chatroom in that state, you can pick up the phone and call a doc or friend instead?

Good luck LL and I hope things are OK.

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LOST_Please understand this! You are very much loved in the forums here, both my myself and by Kim...that's why she's upset. We care about you so much! We want to see you back in chat so soon; please don't run away.
You are a very special person, who has so many wonderful things in store for you. I didn't mean to trigger you yesterday; I thought you were in a place to hear what I had to say, and I apologize for my assumption. I want to see you healthy and whole; it just put kim in a very helpless position BECAUSE she cares about you...
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lost_lonely...I'm glad you're okay. I was really worried. I know you didn't realize the position you put me in. I'm not that angry anymore. In fact, I'm quite relieved to hear from you. I think you should come back and chat. I would be sad if you didn't, just because of one incident. I want to talk with you about what happened. If you're not comfortable coming back to chat, please pm me. Thanks.

Kim

well, I'm truly glad you're not angry anymore. The truth is, everything in my life up to this point has failed, and I didn't want to fail here too, on a website with complete strangers. Even for me, that would be a first.
What did you want to talk to me about? I don't think the overdose did any serious damage. I'm sure I'll be fine.
Thanks, I appreciate your concern very much.