[MtnTime2896]

I honestly feel like a psychologist's and/or psychiatrist's wet dream.

An updated list of official diagnoses: PTSD/C-PTSD, Bipolar 1 (possibly with psychotic features, still being fully evaluated), Depression, GAD, Social Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, ADHD, and Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

So, basically the only two things that's changed: BP was added and MDD was taken down to depression (moderate).

Does anyone else ever feel the same? Like you have so many issues that a therapist honestly looks at you like a challenge or something of that nature?

I bet they feel like you are worth helping. You have so much to offer; I see it; they probably see it as well. You don't deserve to suffer and hopefully they can make your life a little better.

in the earlier days, I have had the comment, "so, what don't you have?"

from a professional too

UK mental health at it's best

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

I bet they feel like you are worth helping. You have so much to offer; I see it; they probably see it as well. You don't deserve to suffer and hopefully they can make your life a little better.

Thanks. I don't mean to sound like a downer, but maybe I'll see it one day. A part of me really wants to see what you do.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

in the earlier days, I have had the comment, "so, what don't you have?"

from a professional too

UK mental health at it's best

Every time I hear about the UK mental health system, it makes me sick. I'm sorry that you had to deal with that bull ****.

[mugwort2]

Most times I feel like a mental health professional's meal ticket. That is I'm a way for them to make money. Especially when I see them driving in a luxury car.

Feeling like a project is one of the reasons I have not been back to therapy.

[LadyShadow]

I had a team of doctors when I was in the hospital the last time, so I was definitely their project. They kept monitoring me and taking notes. Literally like a team. It was like the worst feeling ever. But now that I have come down from my manic state I am back to seeing my usual pdoc and therapist so things are back to normal.

I know if they made me feel the way that team of doctors made me feel I probably wouldn't go.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

I had a team of doctors when I was in the hospital the last time, so I was definitely their project. They kept monitoring me and taking notes. Literally like a team. It was like the worst feeling ever. But now that I have come down from my manic state I am back to seeing my usual pdoc and therapist so things are back to normal.

I know if they made me feel the way that team of doctors made me feel I probably wouldn't go.

I can understand that. My therapist doesn't make me feel that way so much, but the ones before him did. Now, it's almost like I just see that about myself. I'm just a project. There's no other reason to give a damn enough to work on me.

I must admit I laughed at your "psychologist's wet dream" comment. lol.

I'm sorry you feel like maybe your t / pdoc sees you as a project . I agree with HopingTrying's comment in that they probably think you're worth helping and that you've got a lot to offer.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

in the earlier days, I have had the comment, "so, what don't you have?"

from a professional too

UK mental health at it's best

OMG this crap makes me so angry. What the **** is wrong with these ""people"

U.K. Mental "health" - it nauseates me

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Thanks. I don't mean to sound like a downer, but maybe I'll see it one day. A part of me really wants to see what you do.

I think you have a lot to offer as well

Also these people are supposed to want to help

To be honest, I don't know all my diagnoses. My psychiatrist has inferred I have several but is reluctant to list them off as he doesn't want me to fall into the trap of labels. Officially, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar. But he's sent me to therapy for extreme anxiety and obsessive compulsive behavior. We have discussed early trauma in my life and that from my military service and how certain things trigger immense fear and physical responses arising from these experiences.. In addition, we have discussed events he says were dissociative. Whew, that could be a long list.

I have been told by numerous Pdoc's and T's, to try not to focus on my diagnosis, and more on the symptoms I'm experiencing, and how I can cope well. They've said that diagnoses are mainly for insurance purposes, and not to get hung up on it. This was honestly though, when everyone was telling me I was schizoaffective (a misdiagnosis). My diagnoses, if you feel like knowing (I'm gonna tell ya!) are major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety (apparently), social anxiety (mild in my opinion, though its hard to get myself to go to parties to save my life), I also have trauma. I think it's important not to define myself by these things. But sometimes I forget that. Especially since I'm on disability because of it at the moment. My Pdoc thinks I should start looking for a job, and i do too, because I am pretty functional and feeling better, it's just a change and it's scary. Anyway, I suppose that last part was a tangent.

[Cyllya]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I honestly feel like a psychologist's and/or psychiatrist's wet dream.

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Does anyone else ever feel the same? Like you have so many issues that a therapist honestly looks at you like a challenge or something of that nature?

I'm under the impression they tend to prefer the easy patients, who only have one or two problems and get a massive improvement from their treatment.

But hypothetically, even if they are just working with you because it's an enjoyable challenge, wouldn't that mean they think the desired end result (you, cured) is going to be good? I figured it'd be pretty rare for highly educated professionals to get much satisfaction from a challenging project where the end goal is expected to be crap.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

An updated list of official diagnoses: PTSD/C-PTSD, Bipolar 1 (possibly with psychotic features, still being fully evaluated), Depression, GAD, Social Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, ADHD, and Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

That sucks. Sorry you're dealing with so many problems.

Keep in mind though, that even though it's called a "diagnosis," the diagnostic labels for psychiatric problems are actually just sets of symptoms rather than distinct medical problems. Since there's a lot of overlap, and many of the problems can cause each other's symptoms as a secondary effect, having three or four problems will often mean you meet the diagnostic criteria for like ten things. (I'm diagnosed with two different depressive disorders even though my depression isn't two separate problems as far as I can tell.)

I thought bipolar + depression was considered redundant.

By the way, I used to have IED-like problems, and I got some benefit learning about sensory issues. (Well, technically, I still have some problems, but the actual "explosions" are much more minor and infrequent now.) Here's a link about it in case it's helpful.

[KarenSue]

I seriously don't know what to think of the Psychological Profession. Meds, some talk, wonder if they listen. Usually just write down codes. Look up meds on their cell phones. Had one who only saw me once in an 8 month period, 3 minutes to write a 'script after I took a survey. Went back every month to pay my fee and get a 'script refill. That was it. I quit. When I finally requested my records, the monthly notes were all copy and pasted notes from a session with who knows who. They never identified themselves. A staff member, maybe? A psychological nurse/practitioner? I was never told. Most of the notes said they discussed the side effects of the meds if i were to become pregnant...I had a hysterectomy 4 yrs prior and that was on my record. So I just don't know.........

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by KarenSue

I seriously don't know what to think of the Psychological Profession. Meds, some talk, wonder if they listen. Usually just write down codes. Look up meds on their cell phones. Had one who only saw me once in an 8 month period, 3 minutes to write a 'script after I took a survey. Went back every month to pay my fee and get a 'script refill. That was it. I quit. When I finally requested my records, the monthly notes were all copy and pasted notes from a session with who knows who. They never identified themselves. A staff member, maybe? A psychological nurse/practitioner? I was never told. Most of the notes said they discussed the side effects of the meds if i were to become pregnant...I had a hysterectomy 4 yrs prior and that was on my record. So I just don't know.........

The amount of incompetence you just described makes me sick. What lazy people.

[xenko]

My T rejected me so I guess if I was a project, it was one he did not want. Since he dropped me I discovered he has more issues than I do. I wouldn't put much credence on a T's diagnosis, especially since I found out first hand that some can't even handle an apology never mind something as important as a diagnosis.

It's all a guessing game for them. They have no idea what your life is really like or what you are going through. Never mind the labels, you're just a human being trying to make the best of the hand you've been dealt.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by xenko

My T rejected me so I guess if I was a project, it was one he did not want. Since he dropped me I discovered he has more issues than I do. I wouldn't put much credence on a T's diagnosis, especially since I found out first hand that some can't even handle an apology never mind something as important as a diagnosis.

It's all a guessing game for them. They have no idea what your life is really like or what you are going through. Never mind the labels, you're just a human being trying to make the best of the hand you've been dealt.

this sounds like a t I used to consult

IMO some of the labels some of them use....are bs...

[eskielover]

I felt like a guinea pig until I refused to take any more meds to have bad reactions to.

When I left my bad marriage & moved 2100 miles away I started new therapy....the combination of leaving the trigger for my mental illness & an outstanding psychologist, she is very impressed in the improvement I've made & how far I've come in the last 5 years of the 9 years I've been free from the bad marriage. She wishes my psychologist that retired 2 years ago could see the change. The psychologist I was going to was the one who suggested the DBT group that was really the key to the change. My DBT group leader is now my psychologist I see monthly now. If I was a project it turned out successful because they cared. But I also live with totally supportive people around me who care more than anything I ever experienced before in the 54 years of my life before I left my past.