[newtus]

I don't have much of a struggle in life. I've had struggling times, like many, but right now my life seems fairly ok.

I guess I don't understand what this is? Depression? Low motivation? laziness?

Ive been going to college now for many years. Only recently have i made any progress. past two years i have. i was doing school online and was fairly happy. just wished for a change. then got accepted to a school an hour away.

i took 6 classes in one semester at the school online. got burnt out and dropped out of next semesters classes. now this current school, i feel, is too far to commute to. i have trouble getting up early (according to me) to drive an hour and then drive an hour back. by the time i get there i still have to take a 30 min bus ride.

i live in a slightly remote area. so the only option i have is car. which i have one.

but then i think about how much i feel the trouble is to even get out of bed to leave the house. i think about all the errands i need to run or even just 1 place i need to go in town and i dread it.

everything seems like an effort.

i feel absolutely AWFUL feeling this way. i never imagined my life like this and i have such high goals for myself. i also tend to quit things after i start them.

Don't beat yourself up. It sounds like you are over-stretched and something has to give.

I think nothing of an hour commute but that is average where I used to live. I did longer in fact. But in comparison some people might find that horrific. It is all relative. But the point is you are finding it difficult and there is nothing wrong with that. One option is to move closer; but, I realise that is easier said than done.

I myself looked forward to and made use of that commute before and after my work day. I used the ride in as time to mentally prepare for my day ahead. I would arrive to work with a plan, and most problems pretty wel solved. Likewise, on the ride home I was able to decompress and clear my mind of the day's events. I found when I made long commutes that I didn't take my work or day home with me. I was able to turn what some might find a disadvantage into and advantage.

How might you be able to turn this into an advantage.